Revelate the unspoken.

Monday, September 29, 2008

That Day.

your message.

i'm not over you, not yet.

i didn't know we think alike.

because you said the same thing.

my heart jumped a beat.

i hadn't seen your name in my mesage box
for a really long time.

leaving behind a beautiful chaos... 2:19 PM.

F1 is over!!
- although he crashed, i'm still a fan of kimi raikkonen.

It was bloody tiring,
i feel totally toned up
and LOSING alot of weight.

I BONDED WITH THIS SHIT
FOR LIKE 3DAYS.

yes, like totally sleeped with it
bathed with it and stuff.

A comforting thought?
im not the only one.

our lovey clique.
starting from the left;
cynthia, siok, valerie, me, lingleng, Joan.

yes, the whole crew.
im totally in love with troy and florance.
they are like so nice.
so much better then my parents.

although troy was drunk most of the time.
haha.

GUESSS WHOOO?
i see until don't wana seee...
oh you know where~~
hahahahaha.

she's so gonna kill me!

CYNTHIA LOR.

why the rose?
this really DRUNK japanese lady gave it to her.

really sweet.
the lady kissed the rose and gave it to cyn.

Last day of work...
Everyone was pretty HIGH.
Desserts were shipped over,
with fruits, champange
and a hell load of other drinks!

then there were like tourist
snapping pictures of us every 5 mins.

Troy was really drunk.
he poured water all over me and valerie...
like totally half drenched!
then he grab val and danced with her.
then he went around hugging the rest of the people.
damn scary!

then we had tourist do dares like wear kids clothes without tearing it
and they get like a discount and stuff.

ohoh, and did i say the customers keep hitting on us.
damn irritating!
poor Joan, got the worse of it though.
a korean uncle!

this is how it went;
K:"what time do your shop close?"
J:"around 1am"
K:"where are you going after that?"
J: "huh?"
K: went red in the face. started stammering the question again.
J: "HUH!"
and the guy went off with a dose of over-embarassment.
and i laughed when she said huh the first time,
the second time i was like laughing out loud at his face.
damn funny lah.

Val and i were both serving this two quite good-looking angmohs.
they tried to pick us up.
lets just name them X and Z.
X was interested in val,
Z in me...

C: "that will be $380."
Z: "okay... hmmm.. do you want my number?"
C: pretends not to hear.
Z: "can i give you my number?"
C: passes him pen to sign for the visa transaction.
X: "we'll right the number at the back of the paper okay.."
C: very irritated tone " sure just go ahead."
Z: very happy wrote his down.
X: shouted at Z - "write mine down too."
turns to val - "this is my number call me".
C: turns to val and val looks back at me.
then we frown.
Z: gave back the transaction recipet/numbers at the back.
"we'll be in singapore till the end of this week. can i expect a call from you?"
V: turns and look at me and i looked at her.
then we both turn back and smile.
C: took the recipet and stashed it with the rest.

please, i like people abit harder to get
hahaha. they didn't impress me one lil bit.

yawns yawns.
im damn tired, dragging myself off the bed....
what to do, i only got 3 hours of sleep.

heading to town later to meet the F1 clique,
then a movie and dinner with scaved.
rong just came to our school, i bet she misses us!

loves.

leaving behind a beautiful chaos... 11:42 AM.

Thursday, September 25, 2008

Let's look at this whole week...
Monday - Steak
Tuesday - Bball
Wednesday - Shopping
Thursday - Sushi
Friday - F1
Saturday - F1
Sunday - F1

No wonder whiney menny is complaining i have no life.
i don't even have time to club.

but then again.
i'm having fun, so it's just annoyed menny.
Bec that i aint got time to go Phuture with her!

shopping yesterday is what i could say painful.
my thighs we complaining bec i had bball the day before...
PAINFUL.
half melissa's fault bec she just can't help hitting me the entire day
although i went all the way to her house,
just to help her choose what to wear for Butter Factory.
Stupid theme just has to be "black and gold"

well, complains aside.
i love my life.
not to say next tues is SENTOSA.
hi people; "my name is lobster!"

leaving behind a beautiful chaos... 8:36 AM.

Monday, September 22, 2008

When I was young.
I used to pray for a bike,
then I realized that God doesn't work that way,
so I stole a bike and i prayed for forgiveness.

don't you just love the logic?

leaving behind a beautiful chaos... 3:37 PM.

Friday, September 19, 2008

that was soooooo.. yesterday.
BUT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KELVIN!!!!

completely explains why im so tired today.

today class is just so full of laughter, okay i admit i am damn noisy...
so i arm wrestle with kristin.
then the whole class erupted with giggles from the girls...
WHAT HAPPENED?
i dont tell you lei!
later kristen scold me, saying she no face.
hahhaa.

then this fynn arhh.....
fynn. you must keep a mile away from me!
not my fault if you_______.
your not as straight as a ruler please.

I feel like some smell-me-please session.
thanks arh. sniffheresniffthere!
but they say my new perfume nice.
i'm damn happy!!

OKAY TIME FOR DINNER OUT WITH FRIENDSS..
I NEED ALCOHOL AND A DRAG...
somehow.
dammit, i have been drinking everyday.
fuck.

leaving behind a beautiful chaos... 3:54 PM.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

words left unspoken.

a drag.

Let downs.

leaving behind a beautiful chaos... 3:47 PM.

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

I wasn't the only one.

you did that 1 other time before,

should i be relieved?

searching, finding, waiting.

seems to be everywhere but getting nowhere in the process.

looking back, too many broken hearts.

what's the point of all this damage that i caused?

i have no idea anymore.

when the memories just fade away.
looking at your name on my handphone doesn't hurt anymore.

then what is this other change?

a change you brought to me.

i burned my diary and started a new one.

it's time to put your name into ink, a imprint, a past.

unlike the rest.

but i will never change.

will i?

whats all this empty space.

i dreamt of you, you across the table looking at me.
with tears in your eyes.
just like everytime you hug me before our goodbyes.

leaving behind a beautiful chaos... 2:32 PM.

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

now fynn is chasing me off to bed to....

okay time to get out of cyber space world.

leaving behind a beautiful chaos... 10:10 PM.

finally did the comic strip for the RJ.
omg. the application has such cute cartoons and stuff.
i'm in love with this shit!!!

okay, shear says i need to get to sleep as soon as possible.
My fever subsided after the dose of panadol
but i'm still thoroughly exhuasted!

so nighty whitey people.
kisses and hugs.

leaving behind a beautiful chaos... 9:36 PM.

it's so fucking stressful.

i swear i hate tuesdays.

no, really.

and my fever is not getting any better..

i just lost my will for living.

maybe because it doesn't really have much that i'm bothered about anymore.

just sometimes.

but it all seems to last for a really long time.

leaving behind a beautiful chaos... 3:43 PM.

Monday, September 15, 2008

CABBING HOME.

my heart my fucking heart.

ahhhhh.!!!!!

leaving behind a beautiful chaos... 3:47 PM.

Summary of the weekends, baby.

of all beers i seriously
prefer heineken.

really if you didnt know please
go and try all the different brands.. =]

MOONCAKE FESTIVAL

what else?
candles, candles, chatting,
laughter its all the same..

a star for this year..

mounding of wax..

into hearts.

if you think its easy
please go and try!

BUTBUTBUTTTT...

guess what's different this year?

ILLEGAL DRIVING!
zinc fetched us me and reina home.

and she was trembling
throughout the whole journey.
but i swear she drives better then carson!

carson has license,
she doesnt have one YET.
what does it say?

BOOHOOOO CARSON!!

the journey home was so
non-tiring and like totally drifty.

i'm just totally lazy to blog.
i need time seriously..
time to have train breaks.
time to go clubbing.
time to stop drinking at home. [meaning i should go somewhere else]
time to like sort out some stuff that i put aside, till next time.
time for a stayover.
time to meetup with the rest.

time to meet the nightmare....

*SCREAMS*

leaving behind a beautiful chaos... 8:53 AM.

Friday, September 12, 2008

AHHHHH!!

someone said; "your my xiao ke ai."

omg. so cute.

so loved.

leaving behind a beautiful chaos... 10:47 AM.

we're drifting apart?

yes. i want it that way.

i'm easily sick.

trust me, i never really liked myself.

leaving behind a beautiful chaos... 9:26 AM.

WOKE UP SAD.
I swear this faci is a real NERD.
no offence really, but the more i look at him
the more i feel my soul escaping from my body.
it would really help if i have something good to look at
for a morning like this.

Like damn, this morning.
i have no idea whats wrong with me...
i actually brought my bolster i was hugging to sleep all the way to the toilet,
i didnt even realise i was holding it
only occured to me when i realise i cant strip to bathe with one hand.
man, how tiring.!

then i just stared blankly at my wardrobe,
until i got screamed at for not being dressed yet.
I don't usually have a problem dressing for school.
okay. so i just randomly took a White shirt,
i mean how difficult can it get?
white goes well with any other colours.

walk over to the side.; 4 different ties.
damn.
walk over to the wardrobe; coat, pullover, vest.
fuck.

Stared into the mirror;
classical music playing...
CLASSIC.
grabs a black tie.

then i realise im having a bad hair day.
damn cap, no cap?
beanie, no beanie?
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
double fuck.
then zinc was being the bitch was telling me she's at BS
and i gotta get my ass moving.
a jog in the morning.

Suddenely i felt like going home, back to my bed.
I WANA SLEEP ARH!
didn't help when this bloody sissy was staring at me on the bus.
i pretend to sleep, he was still looking..
so i stare back at him lor!

leaving behind a beautiful chaos... 8:38 AM.

Thursday, September 11, 2008

YES!!! IM NOT LATE FOR SCHOOL!
hahaha.

the cost of coming early to school?
I LOST MY SHADES.
basket lah.

okay, i have been neglecting my blog like shit.
but im really not to blame, no matter what it's not my fault!

LETS DO A LIL KETCHUP.
went SnowCity with zinc, sc, reina and reina's family....
that day.
i forgot which day lah, go see menny's blog.
because i meet her after that.
so we sat by the fountain to chatchatchat.
Someone has been very naughty.
talk about no two people alike.
MY FOOT ARH.
because zinc obviously wana slap me and menny,
I therefore decided that scorpios are sooooo..
you know. Scandalious.

then it has been back to school.
class is well Fun..
gotta group with new classmates and what else?
everyone in my group has nicknames alrdy.
well, im bad at chinese names remember.

so far, i have like
DUCKY, PORRIDGE, ROUND WIND, PIXIE.
the rest have like english names so oh well...
and i wonder why they started calling me...
Linda.
like eewww.. stupid problem statement.

back to reality:
FACILITATOR is HERE!!
the tamil bitch is here talking already.
wish me luck that i understand what the hell she's saying today please.
please give me god ears because her accent.......
wadlau... fucking strong can!
[i can't imitate her accent, damn. thats how bad it is!]

ciao.

leaving behind a beautiful chaos... 8:24 AM.

Saturday, September 6, 2008

Deceiving and Lying.

i'm tired.

leaving behind a beautiful chaos... 5:19 PM.

Thursday, September 4, 2008

FIRST DAY OF LIFE IN A NEW CLASS.
Class was really pin-drop-also-can-hear quiet in the morning
and MSN wasn't helping by being sucha bitch.

How bad can it get anyway?
I have seriously got a block of wood for a brain in the morning,
didn't even knew it was my turn when the introducing-of-oneself came about.
yes all eyes were on me and i was like "me?"
and yes of course they laughed.

DAMN happy after the first break out.
She's the best. Fynn came over to my class, the first somemore.

Second meeting back in class; then things started to warm up.

Then came along the questions that i should have already gotten used to...

"are you singaporean?"

"why your surname so funny one!"
"how do i pronounce your name?"

Laughed and laughed until the Facilitator stared at us.

funfunfun. my group is damn noisy!

THEN CAME SECOND BREAKOUT.

then came the rest to visit me. SUPER LOVED LAH!!

then we all went class hopping, collecting people and checking others out.

damn tired i tell you!

OHOH...
Zinc is like SUPER DUPER WELL KNOWN AMONG THE GIRLS!

went to her class and they were like;
"zinc... how to do?"

"zinc!"

"zinc help me."

wah. zinc here zinc there.

I see and hear until head pain sia!

3rd meeting is a pure torture.

i was actually trying hard to remain CALM,
Breathe christ, breathe!.

the facilitator is HORRIBLE MAN.!

going on and on like some long-winded bitch.

made me feel so god damn tired and fucking restless.

Annoying.

no you have no idea how annoying..

aside that everyone says i look almost naked
and like complaining that i'm wearing damn less then my usual.

THE POINT IS;
TO THINK I MET HIM.
that i have really meant to avoid at all cost.

fuck shitt.

hopefully tmr is better.

But this class seems like fun.!

*GRINS*

leaving behind a beautiful chaos... 6:48 PM.

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

QUIZZES.

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Seventh Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Very Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	Low
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	High
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Moderate
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Low
Level 7 (Violent)	Very High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Low

Take the Dante's" Divine Comedy Inferno Test

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Personality disorder;

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid Personality Disorder:	Low
Schizoid Personality Disorder:	Low
Schizotypal Personality Disorder:	High
Antisocial Personality Disorder:	Low
Borderline Personality Disorder:	Moderate
Histrionic Personality Disorder:	Moderate
Narcissistic Personality Disorder:	Low
Avoidant Personality Disorder:	Low
Dependent Personality Disorder:	Low
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:	Low
-- Take the Personality Disorder Test --

leaving behind a beautiful chaos... 3:39 PM.

It's all in the HEAD.
that's great, one month of complete isolation.

what can i say?
how about.
I'M BACK! and totally in time for school.

What changed?
1. Other then being a fucking train. again.
2. i cut my hair shorter.
3. i dyed it a DARK colour.
4. i think i'm slighty retarded in the area of studies.
5. aside that i believe a shot a day keeps the doctor away.
6. i fairer then my mum now...
7. i need shades whenn there's sunlight.
8. i haven been training in the gym. so im probably fat.
9. i can fit into size 25 now.
10. one meal a day and you have a great bod.
11. i wake at 12 everyday! spell, S C R E W E D.
how isit gonna help on thurs!

im gonna stop at 11 because i like 11.
RAWR. yes i'm bored.

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SRI CEMPAKA NAMED A EMOTICON AFTER ME.
man, am i honored or what.!
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Mum keeps nagging at me to eat something...

LIKE NOW!

I have like dinner with aunt jesse later.
happy to see her buttttt FEAST AGAIN.
how i hate it.

ciao.

leaving behind a beautiful chaos... 1:50 PM.

THE TUNNEL UNDER THE TRAINTRACKS.

My cold lil secret.

our promise, that i will never forget.

the last entry of you.

2107.

whenever i think of you, my hands on the phone.

falling apart, barely breathing.

putting the phone down, that was easy.

Then i pictured and pretended.

Hanging by the moment with you.

your eyes,

with a broken heart and still bleeding,

saw the pain, is there healing?

Desperate for change.

Barely holding on.

Tried my best to be guarded, another day.
I want it gone just like you do.
A picture of the past.

Parting ways.

a promise, a agreement.

till that very day, i'll keep my part.

till we meet again.

Loved but never Forgotten.

one last kiss.

leaving behind a beautiful chaos... 1:22 PM.

Monday, September 1, 2008

Someone please kill me,

am i hallucinating?

i just saw kelvin drink LONG ISLAND TEA,

at this time in the morning!

bitch. i'm gonna go slap him.

leaving behind a beautiful chaos... 11:45 AM.

GUILTY RIDDEN.
i think i finally realise i have a conscious.

Conscious wasn't meant to be like that okay.!
spending my parents money isn't suppose to be some big issue,
that gets you guilty ridden and making you toss and turn in your bed,
plus it isn't suppose to be overly a big issue when your parents are there
buying you wantever you want right?

I think maybe it's just the fact that they do that rarely?
like buy stuff for me while we're out together?
or is it just because i'm used to shopping of myself?

Nevermind THAT,
i don't feel happy at all spending their money.
okay, my money is literally their money.

well, at least if they come in forms of CARDS
i wouldn't have to know how much i spend would i?
i rather get scolded for overspending when they saw,
then being asked, "what else do you want?"

OKAY.
I'm a weirdo.
so sue me.

WENT STEAMBOAT.
yes again. how disgusting tell me.
then we went shopping,
the digits were really nice...
then we drank like a dozen alcohols, one after another.
until dad wanted another Heinken and mum got mad.

Summary of yesterday?
kelvin is damn retarded, one cup of wine
and he just stay leaning against the glass wall.

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oh yea, Stupid Shear got me worried.
it's a biggy if you got me worried, i'll have you know.

Fever for 5 days is SO-NOT-FUNNY.
especially with that DENGUE advertisement going on.
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leaving behind a beautiful chaos... 11:02 AM.