i think i know now.
first it was you,
then it was me.
then it was the both of us.

you made a choice.
because i was taking too long...
way too long.
bye.


BAKABAKASHI.
KNS.
"christine are you with us?"
i swear i hate it when he said this to me.
its him. it's just him!!
just pick on me, pick on me, pick on me.

i swear. i wana SLAP HIM.

whatever lah.~
Sy is telling me i should always bare in mind he's my PP advisor.
i shouldnt ever everr eveerrr cause conflict [temporary]
and suffer with grades[permanently].

im suffering some mental disorder.
im discriminating guys.
im having some brain cramp.
maybe from just shutting everything out,
i become kinda retard after that.

RETARDED LEH.
not like it's stupid you know.

what's my mood now?
I-DON'T-GIVE-A-DAMN kinda mood.

im looking forward to saturday.!
it was once upon a time
that i used to look forward to sunday.










































































































random.





your personality type

Blue - SO TRUE!
red - GOODNESS, i refuse to see but i knowww llaaahhh..

SI!
Spontaneous Idealists are creative, lively and open-minded persons. They are humorous and dispose of a contagious zest for life. Their enthusiasm and sparkling energy inspires others and sweeps them along. They enjoy being together with other people and often have an uncanny intuition for their motivations and potential. Spontaneous Idealists are masters of communication and very amusing and gifted entertainers. Fun and variety are guaranteed when they are around.

However, they are sometimes somewhat too impulsive in dealing with others and can hurt people without really meaning to do so, due to their direct and sometimes critical nature.This personality type is a keen and alert observer; they miss nothing which is going on around them.

In extreme cases, they tend to be oversensitive and exaggeratedly alert and are inwardly always ready to jump. Life for them is an exciting drama full of emotionality. However, they quickly become bored when things repeat themselves and too much detailed work and care is required. Their creativity, their imaginativeness and their originality become most noticeable when developing new projects and ideas - they then leave the meticulous implementation of the whole to others. On the whole, Spontaneous Idealists attach great value to their inner and outward independence and do not like accepting a subordinate role. They therefore have problems with hierarchies and authorities.

If you have a Spontaneous Idealist as your friend, you will never be bored; with them, you can enjoy life to the full and celebrate the best parties. At the same time, they are warm, sensitive, attentive and always willing to help. If Spontaneous Idealists have just fallen in love, the sky is full of violins and their new partners are showered with attention and affection. This type then bubbles over with charm, tenderness and imagination.

But, unfortunately, it soon becomes boring for them once the novelty has worn off. Boring everyday life in a partnership is not for them so that many Spontaneous Idealists slip from one affair into another. However, should the partner manage to keep their curiosity alive and not let routine and familiarity gain the upper hand, Spontaneous Idealists can be inspiring and loving partners.


Adjectives which describe your type:
spontaneous, enthusiastic, idealistic, extroverted, theoretical, emotional, relaxed, friendly, optimistic, charming, helpful, independent, individualistic, creative, dynamic, lively, humorous, full of zest for life, imaginative, changeable, adaptable, loyal, sensitive, inspiring, sociable, communicative, erratic, curious, open, vulnerable.

These subjects could interest you:
literature, art, music, parties, concerts, travel, dancing, eating out, joint pleasure.

IN MY SNOW COVERED WORLD.

the way my mind is set.
you don't have to know,
it's of the least importance.

Hurt isn't in my dictionary anymore,
i've been passed that stage.
No harm done, really.

it's just a lost of control.
That very one time,
i thought you could see.
Don't worry.
I'll never go down that path again.

so you told me once and again,
i would be the one suffering if i kept quiet.
but sweet,
suffering as one is enough.
why make space for pain to torment two?

Just as well...
So that it will rain salty tears no more,
so that its all the smiley faces.
It's not mine.
It's your happiness...

A Rainbow after the rain,
for you....
with love.

SAT
GOODNESS. GRACIOUS ME!
I FINISHED MY PP.
FINALLYYYYY!!!

although yuanyuan say alot of spelling mistakes
and that i didnt even bother to check.
PLUS, i just stopped at SWOT.

I DUN CARE LAHHHH!!
i reall can't be bothered anymore.

im fucking sick.
i lost my voice.
my head is as heavy as a 5kg dumbell
and i keep sliding off my chair
because my centre of balance is off!!

and im in a listless mood.
screwed.

FRIDAY .
found a good enough reason to skip bible study...

Rushed off after presentation, i swear the faci KILLED US ALL.
went to meet menny, that terror have to do her X-ray and shes's scared stiff.
well, arrived too late and she has already been thru the X ray.
the nurse told her; "ready for collection tomorrow morning"
*hear MENNY GRUMBLE.. @!^#!%^&!@*

So, we went to take a walk around Compass point.
went to this painting acrylic shop, and we actually painted figurings for each other..
it looks like it's gonna be easy~

SO WRONG I TELL YOU!!!

i tell you; THAT TERROR!!
she talk and talk and tell me so many stories...
that i have to KEEP REDO-ING MELODY's FACE!!
you have no idea how pekchek it can get!
hahaha. look at my very paint filled fingers~~

i only have that of what i did for menny.
shall get the rest of the pictures from her soon..



spot Mr fulin!
SEE THAT FLASH OF GREEN!!!!!
hahahaa...


THERE!!
thats the figuring that she did for me..



and she actually created such a mess i tell you!
while waiting for me to complete.
look at all the PINK PINK PINK!
NABEH..

BLACK AND PINK DO NOT GO TOGETHER!



and so meet shear and sy after that, i swear it was reallyreally late
before we actually grabbed DINNER.
i ER UNTIL BU ER LE!
then it was home sweet home.


coughing my lungs out.
freaking trashed..

i'll blog tmr.
the sick kid needs sleep, nighto~


what's with the HOT-TEMPERED-NESS of people nowadays.
FIRST IT'S ME.
THEN IT'S SHEAR.
NOW IT'S YUAN.!
omg. YUAN LEH... her temper is like the best one lor..

im waiting for ZINC's TO BLOW.
KAAABBBOOOMMMM!!!

okay. my throat hurts like mad.
and i'm suddenely wrecked with coughing syndrome.
MUST BE MENNY LAHHHHHhh...
coughcough.coughcough.

pain arrrhhhh. nabeh.

but arhhh...
that bung very CUTE leehhhh.!!
HAHAHAHAA..
yea. if you know, you know.
=]

you dunno arh?
aawwwww... TOO BAD!!
WAHAHAHAHHAA.

TV-ing~
loves and ciao.


Smells of the SEA.

Sucide case1: will drinking 700ml of water cause you to die?
christ answer: NOPE! just a light-headed feeling and
the constant im-on-the-urge-of-puking kinda feeling only.


Sri told me i need at least 8 litres of water a day to make me die.
WOW. i didn't know that...
i bet my parents will notice lorr, looking at the water bills of the house rise like madness.
if i drink like 2litres a day while im showering, i shower 3times a day.
the the other two litres while im having my meals to make it less obvious.


I bet i'll look like a bloated _____ and people would be thinking...
Breakfast, looking like a guppy.



first shower, come out like a goldfish.



after lunch, nabeh koi-fish liao le.



after another shower, WTF pufferfish!



after dinner, ZOMG SEAL.



AFTER THE LAST SHOWER, WAHHHH SIAO WHALE ARH!!!



o.o; "wah. Christ suddenely gain so much weight sia."

LIKE LOSERISHLY FAT LIKE THAT.
till my friends cant even recognise me,
i'll be wearing stretchy pants like those of "the hulk".

PIG SWOLLEN FACE, LIMBS AND EVERYTHING ELSE!
Water retention is bad, not to say U-G-L-Y.
what if i never die!!
i'll remain like that forever.. GOODNESS..
NNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!

okay i'm off to do RJ...
listening to: Natasha bedingfield - Pocketful of sunshine.
LALALA~~


Quoted from min's blog:

If you Love someone, Let her go.
If She comes back, She's urs.
If not Love would never meant to be...




PMS - DAY 3
GUMMY BEARS. GUMMY BEARS. GUMMY BEARS.GUMMY BEARS.
chewchewchews on them.
idreamtofyou.
ididn'twanttowakeup...

So Screwed.
i just put off my 2000 word essay again.
howhorrible.
i feel like giving everything up.

i totally threw a tantrum at my mummy somemore,
and i mean that type where you just lie there and kickkickkick.
AHHHHHH!!!
[just felt like doing so lorrr..]
so weird that she never smack my bummy,
she just poked my sides and had a pillow fight with me.

whats wrong with me.


PMSday1.
One thing that makes me laugh still would be FYNN's FACE!!
she was talking talking talking...
then i don't really remember how, but i know;
i anyhow concluded that she meant;
mei you ren hui ai wo.
then i bursted into tears.

poor fynn..
and Nysa refused to help her.
in the end she spend the whole day
making things right for me...
HAHAAAA..

PMSday2.
Shear made me a hell lot better..
NEVERMIND that she cheated on me, right in front of me somemore.
SHE AND HER NEW BF..
then she SHUA PI QI with me over SMALLSMALL THINGS.
she stole patty and refuse to give it back to me!!
she even washed Patty.!
WHO GAVE HER PERMISSION TO WASH MY STUFF!!
[btw, patty is something like a soft toy with a compartment to put stuff.]

LAWLS. can tell how much i love her anot.?
yesyes, i have a weird sense of affection cannot arhhhh..


It's like cough syrup, looks like medicine
but its all actualy a sweet poisonous drug.

i'm sick and tired of all this.
im glad holidays are coming.

which totally reminds me that
either i play till i die,
rot till i die,
or work to my death.

working sounds good.
working = money
money = more playing.
either way better then rotting to death.
either way equals to more playing.
it will take my mind off stuff tooo..

fineee..
i need to find a job soon.
and i have PP to complete deadline is like 8 days away.
FUCK.


and so i did something really STUPID.
like purely typing; "why do people come into your life" into the url..

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.
When someone is in your life for a Reason, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty,
to provide you with guidance and support,
to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.

They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,
this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die.
Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done.


AS MY WHOLE WORLD CAME CRASHING DOWN.
it's not just pms-ing..
or the cramps that are making me puke and losing my appetite.

i couldn't fall asleep after what you said,
your gone. forever.
realisation struck, just as you struck me.
the pain, when you told me everything that ever was, was a lie...
you want me to hate you don't you?
stayed very still, but it still didnt work.
i just broke down.

the silence,
thought of everything through.
no, not just you.
everything...

the quarrel.
the disgust felt inside,
the sudden recognision for a dissappointment in you.
the urge to puke when i see you,
when i saw how you appear each and everytime.
its horrible. its like a bad taste in the mouth.
i don't know how you even manage to do all that.
but yours its just a minor.

my facades are good enough to conceal.
but one day, maybe one day.
i'll come out true.
that very one day,
it would be my silence for all to hear.

my aunt,
i'm gonna lose her soon.
seeing the fear of death in her eyes,
the drugs she's on just to keep her alive.
i can do nothing once again, two times in a fucking row i can't help.

your pain that point of time.
ice, you said you wanted it too, death.
i couldn't help you too...
i just say "don't".
you went "why can't i want that."
silence.
then you said "don't."
but i still did so...
i ran away.
What you have for me i finally know, it's superfical.
we are just killing each other.
you gave me a stab, but i pushed the knife harder in.
so that in time, no matter how tough it would be,
i won't turn back and seek for you.
because i know if i ever did,
i would pain you more without even trying.

In this life...



didn't know,
if i try too hard not to think.
it comes back when im unconcious.
what a fucking nightmare.

i need sleep BADLY.

down to PS after school.
3 birthday activites at the same time on sat...
HOWHOWHOW!?
nabeh.

im pissing myself off only.




how depressing.
everyone changed.
but not you.


tonight. i'll wait up,
because you told me too.
my secret.
=]


Random.

on the way back to class after getting
my cheesecake, fynn's pigtails[curly fries], sy's wedges...

Me: "I DONT WANT FYNN AS A FRIEND!!"
Nysa:"ME TOO!!"
Fynn:"WHYYWHYY IM NICE WHATT.."

me:"what would we like about fynn, hor nysa."
nysa enthuastically:" she's bisexual!!"
fynn and i went BLANK.


NYSA WHAT DO YOU MEAN HURRRRRR..
i suspect she has a huge crush on fynn. hahahaa.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY MINDY!!~

THERE'S NO SCHOOL TODAY!!
I HAVE NO PLANS~~

WOW.
and it's 1.30pm!~
so i decided to drop by at HOUGANG POINT AND GET GROCERIES~
i just felt like cooking...

WE all LOVE fruits.
so therefore the tropical forest we got here..


NO QUEUE.. wah shiok.
the totally bill scared me lor.
$117+.. chey~
like can buy two converse shoes.




packed them into the fridge..
the red wine is horrible i tell you..
gosh.. bad for steak...
sooooo.....






DISH UP for TODAY?
Tuna mayo salad.
mushroom pasta in garlic cream sauce.
roasted black pepper chicken.
assorted fruits. [pineapple, apples, banana, oranges, dragonfruit]



TUNA MAYO SALAD.
you need two fresh butterheads.
look how beautiful they are..



peel peel peel the leafs from the bottom up..
it's not a baby white radish..
it's just the stem.
CUTE RIGHT?



NO i'm not gonna tell you MY recipe~
TADA!! TUNA MAYO SALAD.






MUSHROOM PASTA IN GARLIC CREAM SAUCE.

I used white button mushrooms instead of portobello.

BECAUSE WHITE BUTTON MUSHROOMS
TASTES BETTER IN CREAM SAUCE!
PORTOBELLOs ARE more for grilling or frying them to enhance the taste.



fry the garlic and mushroom
till the mushroom gives out mush juice..
add the cream sauce in..
SPICED and SALTED to get the right taste.


TADA!
PASTA~
remember the cheessseeeee...


ROASTED BLACK PEPPER CHICKEN.
Stupid kelvin actually ate some portion when i did the pasta..






RAWR.
Pepper says CH is jio-ing us to go BLISS
PEOPLE HOWHOW.?

hmmm..
see how, after i walk my lil doggy.
byyyyeeeee!!


TUESDAY NIGHT.
IT'S MINDY's BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION!!
people count that turn-up: 10



Introducing the birthday girl..
thats my Mama~~





cameraman: christ
in the direction of a n...
from the left:
lala/reina, barbra, zinc, lijun, MINDY, minn and weichong.




cameraman: lala/reina
see how horrible she takes a photo... gosh.



DINNERRRRRRRR~~
MUMMM MUMMM TIME!!





FIRST DISH UP. ALL THE SALMONS!!!
highness~













okay.. the later plans of the day i didnt take any photos..
COMPLETELY FORGOTTEN TO!!



we brought mindy to O BAR.
we totally gave her no clue as to where we were going..
while we were walking pass a hotel...
she was like;" WHAT. BOOK ROOM ARH? 8p?"
then i went: "duuhh.. party raid what!"
mindy was like; "so less guys lor."
me; shakes head
[man, no wonder shes my mum..]



O BAR.
we chilled and catch up and stuff..
furthermore, the atmosphere is great lahhhh..
the sofa and cushions..play games, sang Karaoke and drank alcohol.


while waiting for the rest...
we played GUESS-THE FIST GAME, TEQUILA for FORFEIT.
drank 4 jugs before they finally cammeeee..



NEW favourite drink for christ - green apple vodka with sprite.!!


then Menny, Mr no-more-secret, Ghee and Carson came~
wooohooooo... riotriotriot!!


I SWEAR CARSON LOOKS LIKE SEBAS..
SEBAS.!! OMG. I SWEAR. REALLLYYY!!
i did a doubletake when he walked in..
LIKE 80-90% look alike.
*SCREAMS*
i found your longg lost brother sebass.

WAHAHHAAAA..

Poor me, more paisei can...
i gotta sing the song! geezz.
AND HOLD THE CAKE..

so sad. so mean lahhh..
that girl was so mean.
she was being such a b-i-t-c-h i Swear.

this is wat happened.
Nysa wanted me to go toilet with her,
although i emptied my bladder alrdy i still accompanied her..
so there i was standing in front of the mirror..
tugging my shirt into my belt..

then this girl came in....
she face i tell you, HILARIOUS.
but to me it wasn't, cause i'm the cause for her reaction!!

she looked long at hard at me WITHOUT blinking,
and so i turned and look at her back.
then finally after she stand there for a while,
turn and stare at the SIGN ON THE DOOR.
then she paisei, face redred,
walked fastfast into the nearest toilet cubical.
goshhhh..
i think its just my hair.
since it's so short everyone thinks im a guy!
*STARTS WAILING~~*


SUPER MANGO ICE WITH ICECREAM!
shiok i tell you.
after that i freezed my brains, my mouth went numb,
then i turned red [whole body kae!] because it was toooo COLD!

well, want could i say about school and class.
BORING WORRING.

the only thing keeping me happy right now,
is the thought of after school activities.
IT'S CLUBBING/PUBBING/BAR-ING DAY!!
Celebration of Mama's birthday.~~
poor thing, she's got the OLD phobia.
she made it a point to tell me NOT to mention
or say a word about her age...

Meaning..
i cant even say:
HAPPY __ BIRTHDAY MINDY!!
how stupid.

and IT's SUSHI TIME.
i dun care i want my SALMON SASHIMI!
shal upload with more pics~

BACK to lesson for now.


do i need you like i do?
what will it take for me to stop the pain you feel.


i have been wondering,
we are all human ain't we?
how come we are so different.
how could it be so..

but then..

looking at the sky.
i found my answer...
both are trees aint they, but why are they so different too?


the night view is awesome whenever i walk my dog.
somehow i prefer the peace, the cooling wind.
giving time for myself, to find myself.
and i did. =]


eeeyyyuuuurrrr.
IT'S MAMA's BIRTHDAY TOMORROW!!
I LOVE YOU MINDY!!~
hahaha.


Christ is fucking sick.
puking all the stuff that i stomached.
having a very terrible headache.
burning a fucking fever.
my eyes are like slits man!
insomia seriously suck.

and i need to get STARTED ON MY 2000 word essay NOW!.


i'm learning the way to continue with life,
just like what the person that i used to love told me to.


Death that have bought such harm.
saw everything falling apart.
looking at you,
the emotions you have learned to hide now..
when have you learned that,
what could it be?

you didn't know another is dying to.
when you said you wanted that too.
i crashed deep inside.
my laughter, my light jokes replaced.
yes, i have learned to switch fast enough.

but sometimes.
my jokes you brush aside,
they meant something more, much more.
they come from deep within.
a question in what seems like just a play.
i really said what i really mean sometimes.
a statement to be, laughed off by all.

enough.
i done damaged this time.
so that you won't wish.
if you wish and expect from me...
it would only pain you more.

your voice, doesn't help anymore.
used to, but you said enough.
mine only makes you feel worse.
i don't know how to help you.
never knew, never would.


the rush just a simple deep stroke across.
the pain, followed by something else.
the numbness.
the reddening, swollen flesh.
the never ending flow.

this time i want it somewhere else.
somewhere where i can't see just like that.
in front of the mirror, there i can see it.
that very place.
finally,
just one neat nice thin stroke across.
hard. deep. Bliss.
lustful for it all.


i'm not sad.
i'm not depressed.
i don't have fucking sucidal thoughts.
i'm not afraid of empty rooms, that makes me feel like no-one is coming back again.
i'm not a fat ass.
i'm not FUGLY.
i really love drifting off thinking about stuff.
i love my fucking life.
i'm not tired reallyy..
most importantly, i don't hate myself.

Everything above is a total Lie...
what else?
anyway;
WHO THE FUCK AM I?
just a fake right now.


leaving.





UGLY ME!
just for people that ain't in RP.
yes, okay.
i post a pic okay.



Depressed.

Fynn was telling me... true friends are for everrrr

[c=4]Christ Jaden ouji [/c] Cherries and Black Tulips.
true friends are not forever

[c=4]Christ Jaden ouji [/c] Cherries and Black Tulips.
till one diessss!

FYNN**:
so they are forever

[c=4]Christ Jaden ouji [/c] Cherries and Black Tulips.:
no, till one dies

FYNN**:
when they die

FYNN**:
i will still be in their heart

FYNN**:
carried with them FOREVER

FYNN**:
HHAHAHAAH

[c=4]Christ Jaden ouji [/c] Cherries and Black Tulips.:
when they die

[c=4]Christ Jaden ouji [/c] Cherries and Black Tulips.:
they have NO HEART

FYNN**:
they have aheart

FYNN**:
just that it is nt beating

[c=4]Christ Jaden ouji [/c] Cherries and Black Tulips.:
hahaha

[c=4]Christ Jaden ouji [/c] Cherries and Black Tulips:
thats cute

[c=4]Christ Jaden ouji [/c] Cherries and Black Tulips:
a non-beating heart

[c=4]Christ Jaden ouji [/c] Cherries and Black Tulips.:
so sadly beautiful



----------------------------------

plams upon heart they say,
it will lead you on your way.
lost your heart,
yes, you gave it away.
kept it closed for all too long,
just like that, a very sad song.
a scene of facades and lies spawned.
the glimpse of hope now lost and gone.

now what do you say,
i can't hear you now.
-----------------------------------------




YES. WOLVERINE!!

cynthia suggested i style my hair this way.
i was thinking NOT BAD ARHHH...
WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA


Did i say?
i really really wana put a paperbag over my head.


LIKE TOTALLY.
><
boohooo.!!


Yesterday.
was my affair with paper bags.
SHOP till i reallyreally DROPPED MAN.
5 hours and mel was complaining she's tired.
ate and rested the rest of the time away.

so we are left with Sat to do the rest of her shopping and mine.
i went home,
forgot dinner.
dropped onto the bed.


im depressed. fuck.


HE'S AGAINST BUNGS I SWEAR!
I BET, HE TOTALLY HATED ME
FOR LEAVING A LESSER
PERCENTAGE OF WOMEN FOR MEN.

Went to a new salon.
came out with a horrible horrible haircut.
BY FAR THE WORSE THAT I HAD.
im fucking depressed,
i would have cried on the spot if it wasn't for the shock i had
when i faced the mirror, not recognising myself.

serve me right for not sticking to my usual salon...
*slap myself a thousand times*
he fuckiing gave me half bob and half guys haircut.
NABEH. HE DUN UNDERSTAND LAYER and SHORTER ABIT ISIT!

okay, im pissed and im getting really paranoid.
considering i had to change it totally...
yes, i did it! like trim, layer abit more, CHOP off some.
ps: zinc its like GH one lor i swear. like HALF GH's one!
my bro say it makes my girl side look too cute already like girly in a way.
RAWR!! i love my guy side and i just made both that way.


i still have with mel tmr.
SHOPPING DOESN'T SEEM SO FUN NOW.
im considering a cap, either that
or im really testing my hair-waxing skills.




KILL MEEEEEE!!
*SCREAMS*


UPDATED with PICTURES.
THE NIGHT AT ZOUK.


introducing;
the ALMIGHTY QUEEN, RONG xiao jie.


this was just like a tineeey winny bit of what we drank.



evee the birthday girl, valerie, jael, me and angel!


LOVES. LOVES.
i swear evee's hand is at the wrong place.



this is the super high girls, i'm dancing with.
the girl that keep insisting i drink graveyard?
the center one lor!


then the birthday girl DROWNED.



followed by VALERIE.
poor val she got sick for 4 days after that
and she's still sick now.


VALERIE IS SO SUPER HIGH THAT SHE SQUASHED ME!




RestRestRest.
6 hours in total.
what else.



WATASHINO WA HUNGURI DESU!


As birds flew away from Winter.
out, away, unreachable, untouchable.
maybe it's good for me.
i keep thinking if you did it on purpose.
away. anyway.
time keeps moving.
it stops for no-one.

Maybe, alright.
could be, never should be.
silence, no.
another silence, No.

Trying it out. i know.
slowly letting me go.

have fun. lifes apart.
no other lies. just truths and the unspoken.
unspoken, we both know.
would never risk again trying to tell.

until...
we get older.
until we meet again.

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
the withered leaves and snowflakes floating down.
the hospital.
they said, last stage.
the doctor said,
soon.

Last stage.
they let her go home...

no more.

plastic glass walls.

masks and gloves.

As she headed home and wait for her death.



Better understanding upon oneself?
lets see if it's that true~



orange are the OMGs i didnt know that..
red are what i have heard before from you people..
blue are my comments.
bold are the I know.



Eighth sign of the zodiac SCORPIO.
Your element: Water
Your ruling planet: Mars and Pluto
Tarot card corresponding to your sign: Death
Your lucky color: Black
Your stone: Amethyst



First, a word about your tarot card, DEATH. the significance of which might be worrying you. Know that, in the symbolism of the tarot, Death indicates that which dies in order to be born anew in a better form. When it is reversed the Death card may indeed mean the end of something. But when it is right side up it evokes rebirth, renewal, a new beginning. This is characteristic of your sign. You sometimes have a tendency to link the very good with the very negative.
[ohoh... i totally agree.
you know where there's some cases,
i would say...
it would be it's too good to be true?]



Like all the signs of Water you are a very deep, mysterious, unfathomable being, sometimes inaccessible and uncontrollable. Your unconscious is so strong and so rich that psychoanalysis seems to have been invented for you.
Your imagination is very powerful and very fertile. When you were very young, for example, you had thoughts which exceeded those of other children your age.
[the dark side of me.]


With you there is no chance of either dullness or mediocrity. You have a taste for the absolute, and this is why existence sometimes seems difficult to you. You would like your life to be in perpetual movement, always fed by novelty and the exceptional. This isn't always easy to achieve, and you don't always give yourself the means to make it happen, even when great changes pass within your reach.
[the spoilt side of me/ in roong's case, im rotten.]


The influence of Mars can make you combative and masterful. But be careful, because Pluto stirs up your deepest doubts and worries in order to draw you towards failure. This opposition means that sometimes you end up destroying what you love.
[what a sadist.]



In love, you have many requirements and many spiritual states that others sometimes have difficulty following. You occasionally run the risk of ruining relationships by giving too much importance to difficulties which could have been resolved with more understanding.
[why is it in GREEN?
because i totally hate this portion,
plus nobody said this before.
wait.. is this true?]



You are fully conscious of your great qualities: an enterprising spirit, imagination, sensuality, charm, magnetism.
[okay, as they said i would know and i really do know.]

But you also know your faults: desire for control, self-injurious behavior, impassioned behavior, tendency to complicate things and situations.
[yeah, i know. i know already!]






Your relations to the other signs:
You get along fairly well with Cancers as long as both your imaginations are alike; if not, the relationships risk being superficial.
[oh really.]

You should learn to truly appreciate certain aspects of Capricorns, who may be able to bring you a lot.
[wahahhaa. appreciate leeehh.]



You risk getting into conflict with Tauruses as soon as these relations become too close.
[now i know why!! WAHHAHAHAA.]


With Geminis certain passions can become excessive and end badly.
[yeah, i know thats stay away from them.]


Aquariuses have an instinctive tendency to flee from you.
It's up to you to decide whether you want to win them over.
[omg. omg. omg..]

HILARIOUS I TELL YOU!
i shall upload the video soon, when i get it!

EXCITED
all of us are behaving like it's our birthday like that.
waited for her faci to leave her class...
collaborated with her classmate
kept her in the classroom.
off the lights
and in we went cake, flowers, balloons and US.

SURPRISE.
evee was really surprised her face, on the verge of tears.
SHOCKED.
she went trembling for like hours!
when i meet her at night she was still trembling.

then shovis and jael came.
Hugs, pictures, evee's very happy face.

evee was like telling us she tot we forgotten about her birthday.
NONE of us msged her HAPPY BIRTHDAY at 12am.
and we didn't even planned that.
i just a gut feeling that told me,
don't msg her.

well, then her breakout was over,
she has class and so we went our own separate ways
and get ready for tonight.

Went to apple's house,
was suppose to play and talk.
In the end i fell asleep on the table.
then when she wrapped her comforter around me,
i woke up [i'm a light sleeper!].

went to see if i can get evee's present today
because the person told me it might 3 days late.
super happy when they told me it came already.
lalalalalalaaa~

went shopping since we still got time.
THEN i forgot where i put her present..
i totally broke her present!
for making the driver panic along with me
jam brake anddd TADA.
glass piano music box
suppose-to-be.

i was really reallyy upset.....

I felt really tired.
so i decided to head home instead of going back to her house.
a empty house and my doggy.
fell asleep waiting for sebas to come.
waiting for evee call me later.

in the end.
angel said zouk is going to be full.
so all the bungs remain as who they truely are.
hahahhaaaa.
we all headed down to zouk.
:
:
:

ZOUK.
WAS A BLAST!
i swear.

CAUSE EVERYONE WAS SUPER HIGH!
WOOOHOOOOO~
It was HOT HOT HOT SEX.
i was getting abit too high, dirty moves and all.
i really cant remember who did that ________.
i felt hands wanting to stripp me!

other then this pervert guy that val say was smelling my hair.
other then that drunk guy that we just knew
that crashed into evee and i had to pull him off her and away.

i had total fun
Dancing.
dancing in a group screaming and moves.
everyone spells HIGH-NESS.
dancing with Peach and Apple was awesome.
Peach taught me the Mambo moves.
Apple was totally playing dirty with me throughout.
some people got kinda turnon.
from what they told me. hahahaha!
awesome.awesome.

got flashed at by this really hot ah gua after clubbing.
I SWEAR, Apple is a ahgua too.
omg, her voice after that is like....
INDESCRIBLE.
met alot of new people.
had breakfast and chatted around.
got home at 6.45am.
to hit the sacks?
nah.

gotta change and head to school.
I HAD TEST!

I felt numb.
the alcohol was still in my blood stream.
so numb i didn't feel tired.

It was so horrible!
i just wanted to rest my head on my arm and i fell asleep!
GOSH. Lucky fynn woke me up.
Fynn said for me to sit beside her
so that if i fall asleep again she would wake me up.

I DIED IN MY TEST.
I WAS NODDING OFF.
PLUS I ACTUALLY FELL ASLEEP!
gawd.
die liao lahhhhh.


after that.
lala was like complaining that i look like a walking zombie,
like something that has no strength anymore.
zinc was like making it worse by eating
all the horrible stuff and offering them in front of my face
even though she knows i hate it.
WE ALL FELL ASLEEP ON THE RIDE HOME.
went home.
had dinner.
HIT THE SACKS.

leaving behind a beautiful chaos... 10:00 PM.

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

REINA IS A ASS.

but i LOVE HER STILL.

Because

she said that if she die now, she will...

Christine
My heart and liver

too bad christ,

i want you to live all the way up till 80,

not 40.

The rings that we bought together

the one that you lost it.

the one we got during tiger's bd.

the one engraved with our names.

leaving behind a beautiful chaos... 3:51 PM.

I'm Christ Jaden
also known as Tineey and Jaja.
11 November 1989
Mixed blood.


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