Revelate the unspoken.

Monday, June 2, 2008

IT WAS CELESTINE'S BIRTHDAY, yesterday.

tho i can count the amount of hours i know you.
happy birthday dude.!
hhaha.

5 and a 1/2 can, and Barcadi.
the birthday boy couldn't get off the table because he drank long island tea.
the rest of the guys keep bottoms up-ing with me.
played the guessing number game.
jen helped me drown half a can. thats why theres 1/2 can.
i hate beer.
i knew im half way there... so i stopped.
this bastard of a guy said that if i'm drunk,
he will bring me to his house and ...
i cant remember his name.
fuck.

Hawk drove me back.
I got home at 3am.
i puked. saw blood.
i closed my eyes, seek comfort in the darkness,
sat at the downpouring shower above my head.
i heard my handphone ring.
took a breath. took another.
opened my eyes.
the ringing stop.
i stayed there for a really long time.

5 and a half cans to truth.

I remember Lay Yen popping in,
when i crashed on the floor.

she got me up and asked if i'm alright.

she looked at me in the eye.
in the reflection, i saw a disgrace.

this is reina.
not lala da reina.
but reina.

i cant remember anything
about her.

well, and they took off my shirt.
the guys were like complaining that i'm fitter then them..
lawls. theres a thing call the gym.
not that i have been anywhere near there recently.

what can get worse?
my parents found out about my grades and
the amount of lessons im missing in school.
it's just great.

I destroyed my own table today.
i smashed it, bits and pieces.
brusied and tattered torn.

that guy called my dad,
says i'm some fuckng devil's spawn.
know why?
because i screamed at him back this time.
"GO AHEAD JUST FUCKING HIT ME, I KNOW YOU WANT TO!"
then i stared at him.
i love the hate.

then my mum had a talk with me.
i'm shut out.
it's done.
i prefer it this way, somehow.

I read thru what avarami gave me before i left.
i hurts deep within.
i despise myself now.
Bye world.

Meeting up with melissa this thurs and sat.
off to some shopping spree. again.
thurs - orchard
sat- suntec
she claims i'm her shopping buddy.
and she would never go shopping without me.
tell me why i can only visualise,
me carry her paperbags and my own.!!

leaving behind a beautiful chaos... 8:08 PM.