To seek perfection within all imperfection.
when all reality does is to shove it back at your face.
the times where you have keep it back.
stay strong, try it all over again.
the need to because there are many other things to live for.
then the reason your so certain of.

but then, there are other times.
when all the lights went out on the path your walking on
and your still standing still at the same place.
wishing.
just wishing that it would come on again.
staring hard at the exact same spot where you last saw it.
got distracted and lost the place where it all used to be.
the reason you had before got dimmer, fading away.

fighting within to take a step out.
you fought, got trashed and beaten down.
then you gots tired only too soon
when the weight takes a hold.
when all you know is everything died inside.
the strength to move on is not there.
the thoughts and wishes all faded to nonexistent.
then you watch the rest around you grow.
together for so long, that you didn't notice at all.

then you took a look at yourself.
took a moment to strip yourself from the facade.
close your eyes, search deep within.

I lost it all.
you scream your last.
i'm glad you did it all again.
you tore down the last paper wall.
my last attempt to shield myself.
yes, you gave me pain.

the nightmares that i grew up with.
of you. everyday.
i live with it now,
it all seems too real.

when all others bowed,
i refused to bow.
when they wept at your feet in their weakness,
i turned and walked away.
when you hit me,
curl up on the floor, i never once teared.
i choked on my own blood.

yes, someone helped me.
2 years ago.
she taught me what i never knew.
Then she told me to live on,
walk on and not look back.
then i decided, i won't give you the final victory.

I never went back since.
i dissapponted her.
she was wrong about me.
this time;
i don't need guidance or a hand.
i just want it all to end.
once and for all.

when all comes to an end.

From zinc's blog: "christ scared me. i dunno wad to do if somebody's heart jus stopped beside me. onli solution is to get a license fast and drive to the hospital. i tink so. ha.that's the onli solution wad!! even if u dun wanna die in a hospital, we stil have to go to a hospital so bring u back if possible. wtf. i dun wanna blog liao. the tot of death is so... EYUR."

NO i dun want the fucking hospital, please i beg you.
let me die anywhere but the hospital!!
and..
i'm sorry i scared you.
it scared me too.
hahaha...



But well, i remember hearing that my grandpa died of cardic death.
it seems it's in the genes.
we have like a weak heart or something.
they say it would say the heart would slow down to nothingness,
or beat rapidly too fast.

Mine slowed down alot yesterday.
this morning only once.
i'm not gonna tell my mum about this,
she has no need to know.
you on the other hand have no need to tell.

ohoh.
PLEASE ADOPT EDEN IF I DIE. thanks.

ironically.
fenny just don't get it,
but she's much better now.
=]

meeting E33L later.
HAPPINESS!~


Let's have a check on your sexual orientation.
Are you Bisexual, Straight, gay/lesbian?
check

Mine score - You scored as a Lesbian
Lesbian 100%
Straight 45%
Bisexual 20%
Gay 20%

WOW. expected.

Zinc's score - You scored as a Lesbian
Lesbian 75%
Bisexual 50%
Straight 40%
Gay 35%

so what does this mean?
i'm like straighter then ZINC!!
WAHAHHAAA.

Lesbian quiz.
You scored as a The Pretty-Boi Dyke
You can be a bit cocky at times and ever the heartbreaker,
but no one knows that you're really just looking for true love.

man. and zinc is totally saying its million percent true.
what a idiot. i swear i had to guide her through!
her english OBVIOUSLY FAILED!!


",)zнiчiŋg_ziNc(,") wil u stil love me the next second?? says:
You scored as a The Granola Dyke
Your love for the environment and passion for your beliefs
can be a bit overwhelming at times,
but your friends and family know you mean well.

BELIEFS OVERWHELMING?
gosh tell me about it.
zinc is HORRIBLE LOR.
some madness for old spiral staircases.
some kampong life.
some singlets and shorts.
EWWW!


my heart failed me more then once.
seriously. it just stopped 3 times.
it's so painful, i actually teared.

the tugging wasnt just tugging.
it's so much worse.

keep beating,
don't fail me now.


BLOODTHIRST.
the damage.
Hiding.
i love to be alone now.
somehow. i rather that.
holding it in seems easier this way.

the drinking started again.
one way.
distractions aside.
I'm no good.
anymore.

i'm lost.
hold my hand please.


That day, i Lived life like a Prince.
friday night.
Zinc, Minn, Carson, Pepper, SC and Reina.
they all decided to agitate that bitch at my work place,
make her back off me and stuff.
man, her face was like total darkness that night.
jen said she never spoke a word since i left after that.
unreasonably quiet.


sc and pepper were like feeding me
like i have no hands of my own that night.

carson i think was like dying to have my place.
then there was that,
"baby do you love me?" part.
me; "of course i do. muacks."
haha. fenny was like super pissed.
everyone at the table were complaining about
how close she was leaning into my face.
fuck. you guys have no idea.


Then i got like a backfire.
went to work yesterday and...
she made it even more obvious.
she screamed honeey~. made eyes.
brushed her B**** against my arm.
tried to lean against me....
she even squeeze my side and touched my ass.
fuck lah. i wanna cry already.
but i gotta hold it in.



Rong says i should quit.
Shear says i should quit.
but i love my other colleages.
sighs. shit ass.





WORSE STILL.
I LOST ADEN.
im gonna get another Aden.
THAT MORON, SY.
guess what she told Shear for words of comfort?
"Aden was with her for like more then 2 days.
its like a big thing already."





















Shear got me Arshear, its with me now.
and a HUGE BAR OF Chocolates to fatten me up.






















i don't think i told her before that......
so dun blame her.
I can HEAR zinc and reina SCREAMING ALREADY.!!




Went to Shear's class just now,
she told me she had two news for me.

One good news and One bad news.
and so she said; "they all thought you were a guy."
the bad news; "your too short to be a guy."
HAHAHAAAAA...
whatever~


That Saturday.
went to robinson sale.
OMG.
CANNOT MAKE IT LAH.
it's like auntie goods can!

then went the food fair.
WOAHHHH.. yummy.
spent like 20+ on foody.

then to the ZONE.
the concert was a BLAST.!!
i like lost 2kgs jumping and dancing and screaming!
yi xing was like saying she lost 5kg!

WAHAHAHHAAA...!!

Introducing; Yi Xing and Mel
[mel's hair suck here. she lied to me,
she said she won't put a hairband or tie it up!]
CHEY. i dun like girls that have longhair to tie it up.!





















This is felicia and ling.
they are sisters.
both my cousins.


























THATS ME!
MELISSA!
and
FELICIA!



















okayyy... i gotta go present now.
CIAO!







Can SOMEONE help me sew ADEN?
his legs are like GONNA DROP OFF!!!!
Gosh.
I just played with him only what.
A couple of yoga, a split and stuff...


according to wikipedia:
Flirting is a form of human interaction between two people, expressing a sexual and/or romantic interest.

Teasing is merely playfulness.

you are then the flowerheart lor.


PICTURES. PICTURES.

Thursday.
skipped school with this ppl...
caught made of honour.
[seriously sweet.]



























This is Lay Yen,
she calls me darling now.
POOR CHENG HONG!
[i shall get a pic with fiqah sayang also.]
okay i know it's dark,
we look fucking tired, so it doesnt matter.


That fenny ...
if i quit my job it would be because of HER.
she's a pervertic bitch!
RAWR.
Jennifier, fiqah and lay yen.
swore to protect me at all cost,
and i better only use the toilet with locks.

i'm not gonna blog abt what she did.
fuck.









Long winding road.
i still have a long way to go...


i love it.!
just focus and everything else,
will seem like a blur.


as the hours became days,
the days became months.
till we meet again.




your not worthless.

















yes, its a matchbox.!


















yes, its THIS SIZE!!
the cuteness.
only avaliable in US tho.



kiat says he's gonna get me one.
=]











Gracia got me a bear.
when i needed it most.
it's comforting...






CUTE NOT?

Everyone loves them.
they are like palm size.




















People meet my Bearbear;
Aden!.

he's shyshy.


















I'm reading angels and demons...
engrossed.
SORRY E35L.!!
i wasnt like anywhere near my phone.
and so the time flew by.. >< Ever since fynn cut her hair
SHE HAS BECAME A MEANIE.!
and she's so gross insisting she's sweet and all.

Reena has expression problems.
she tried to find like fats to pinch at my stomach area,
because i was pinching her face.
obviously she couldn't find any...
And so she went to put her arm over my shoulders,
trying very hard to slap my arms.
and so i told her..
the only part where you would find fats is...
and i put my palm on my chest.
So she laughed.
Accidentially, she grabbed my arm and "somethingelse"
then she started to go really tomato like RED
and she kept hitting me like, really hard.

chey. she make it look as tho she's the victim.
i'm like, gosh. POOR ME LOR.
got molested then got whacked.

Seriously.
WHY IS EVERYONE AIMING THERE?
RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRrrrrrrrrr...
*Bites off and chews heads*

ohoh, going expo after school
then to bliss cafe for dinner.
why isit all food.
but nevermind its good,

i have a checkup this saturday.
and since im like 45kg right now.
im so screwed.
just lost appetite for food this days.

Saturday spells F-U-N.
okay, partial fun.

I need to go for my check ups..
then down to expo for like SHOPPING SPREE.
Melissa insists that i must go with her..
Ling would be coming toooo~~

then to the CONCERT!!
the zone.

Put a Smile on my face.
masks help.
i will stick to that.

fenny is a fucking bitch.
i wana sue her for sexual harrassment!
im not her fucking honey.
lay yen is my darling.
gosh what a gross fuck.
someone PLEASE BEAT THE FUCK OUT OF HER.
im sick of all this..


Got home at 6am.
wash up went to school.

Seems like a pretty day.
took a really long time to get to school.
a very very long walk.

the falling leaves of the tree,
when the wind blew.
orange, brown and red falling of the tree.
i stood there for a while.
hold it in.

for you, i will.

im skipping school.


Something to chew on.?
AHEM.
As the wiseman angel says;
"why is it that we are always waiting for the other one to do something
rather than being the one that is doing something.
if you know taking this step forward would make a difference?
then why is it that none of us are taking the easy steps."
Everything happens for a reason, a Relationship fails for a reason.




SUNDAY.
My body alarm clock is so fucking screwed.
I wake up at like 5pm everyday, and sleep around 5am.
RAWR.


But man, i glad that most of my friends are like awake at night!
they gave me a surprise.
Pepper, CH, zinc , reina and carson.
they came to my workplace to eat.
work was seriously good.
tired, but extremely fun.
gotta get to know two great babes,
lets just ignore the great guys that i met.



One is Tika, the other is Lay Yen.
and YES, CH tried to hit on Lay Yen.
i tried like so fucking hard to like help him lor.
asked her to go your table somemore!
too bad carson paisei him.
haha. entertaining man.

Well, then carson brought us to slack after i ended work.
so nice of them lah, waited for me till ard 2am.

DEAR REINA,
I DUNO WHY.
BUT I REMEMBER WHAT YOU SAID LOR.
someone asked her; "WOULD YOU CHOOSE ZINC OR CHRIST?"
reina; " ZINC OF COURSE!! CHRIST IS SOFLIRT . "
DOUBLE RAWR, WITH SLASHES ATTACHED.
chey. whatever lor, if your THAT insecure.
then seriously go away, your such a Loser.

Look at Gracia, she's full of confidence okay.!


CARSON LIKES TO PARK IN THE MIDDLE OF NOWHERE!!

its like when we went to the carpark behind Bliss,
i was shocked when i saw how he parked his car,
its like at the side of the entrance of the road into the carpark.

LIKE HELLLLOOOO!!!
THERE IS NO BOX TO INDICATE
THAT YOU CAN PARK YOUR CAR THERE.
gosh.


then when we went somewhere near my house,
he just parked like....
wait, let me illustrate my point.!






















TELL ME WHY HE PARKS IN THE MIDDLE OF NOWHERE!!
butbutbut.. i like, it's like super convienent!



Then we went to catch up and talk about old times.
we realised we were really BAD Kids last time.

Things that e5 did!!!

Make Mrs ang cry. i forgotten why,
is it the unshaven armpit?
the forest under the arms?
the discussion that when an ant went in
it will NEVER find it's way out?

Miss jeffery refuse to step into our class,
in the end quited teaching altogether.

Throw paper balls/aeroplanes at Miss selina,
everytime we passby e4.

STEALING of teachers passes,
so that we can take a stroll around school ANYTIME.

ALL THE FIST-SIZE BROKEN HOLES
IN THE WALLS AND BROKEN WINDOW PANELS!!!

For a few days the class was SNOW CITY.
SOME FIRE EXTINGUISHERS AT WORK. HAHAA.

The whole class didnt do homework, we were made to stand up,
we stood up and continue talking, ignoring her.
The teacher ran off crying...

Make a pregnant A-Maths teacher continue shouting and shouting.
that one damn poor thing lah.
im in geography not A-maths.

Fabian and Xiaomark :
would always dissappear using the back door,
or they would help us refill water and dissappear for like 3-4 periods!

The whole class was sleeping every social studies,
we all refuse to copy from the Projector.
that one seriously not our fault! the teacher was being such a bitch.
copycopycopy. copy this copy that. might as well sleep!!

By Pepper, joei and menny:
GLITTERS ON FAN,
so that when you on the fan...
everyone in e5 were all shining that day!

Pepper and Me:
BURN BENJAMIN'S STUFF,
Omg. His pen like totally Melted.
he went to COMPLAIN TO THE TEACHER.
the teacher, you know what she did?
JUST IGNORED HIM.
Hahahahhaa.!

Menny and Me;
ransacked his bag,
donated his CHINESE TEXTBOOK
to Xiaomark, who burnt it at the back of the classroom.

Throw his URMBRELLA INTO THE CONDO NEXT DOOR!


Drew graffiti EVERYWHERE!!
GEOGRAPHY was like ART LESSON!!
man, she was so freaking pissed when we drew the whole table.


ohoh,
remember the 4th floor the staircase beside the music room?
where our emo-artwork are?
gosh, when i went back they painted it white alrdy. sadness.


omg. Menny!!!!
remember GRACE HEAVEN?
omg.omg.omg. shit.



Most memorable is that our class chairman,
XIAO MARK would always pretend to lost the keys to the classroom.
then the whole class can like skip 1 - 2 lessons just by sitting outside the class.
the worse thing was the principal made us sit at the parade square
under the hot sun that time when we lost the keys time and again.
Qun fa was like unbuttoning his shirt
and lying on the ground saying; "woah. let's sun tan."

After Menny left school.
I was like solo-ing on the artwork in school.
i had MR WEE painting the walls every single day.


I did a Satanic sign, 3D.
Some NVSS suck, bubble style.
Drew cartoons, every staircase landing.
A inverted cross, at the 1st floor toilet wall.


Oh and when i'm in a super bad mood
the drawings got bigger eventually.!

i saw mr wee taking a picture of the graffities before
asking the painter to paint it white again.
I LOVE WHITE WHITE WALLS!!

I think the school have totally all the records of all the drawings.

lovely memories.
I miss them. alot.






NOW.
What if?
Everything changes.
just a play becomes a reality.
Should i be like the past.
i seems great to be that way again.
free, unbreakable.
where nothing seems to bother.
when asked, Pepper says she would be the past.
but. i just don't want hear the shatters anymore.



For now;
i'm just a toy.


I swear, every single time i wear my grey hoodies.

i will be meeting jessica that hot-headed girl, later on with gracia darling and sy!
we decided to have dinner, then to SHOPPING!
Gosh, i had so much fun... =]






IT'S LIKE JUST MOS LOR.
This happens when Gracia and I order stuff.
chey.
full till wana puke.





















me, reena and zihma.

Oh that guy at the back,
his like Wei Jie theHimbo.
not some GHOST.

they say he looks like my bro.
please lor,
LOOK at SIMON and KELVIN!
where got alike.










how come there are such socks?
















ENGAGEMENT RINGS.
lawls.



Gracia did this for me.


















and so i gave her this..














remind me to tell you guys the story.
me shall go get busy now..... ><
NIGHTO!

























Your right!
gosh the sun was like freaking bright today.
i slept the whole bus trip to school, fucking tired can.
even school was alright.
im so happily pampered.!


zinc and minn are so freaking nice,
i realise i always take it for granted, that zinc msgs me EVERY MORNING.
for me to get m assy wassy to school..
they waited for me at the bus int, even tho i'm later then them.
we went mac for breakfast, since we're late and headed to school after that.
ECLIPSE, was alright today.
then they delievered like foody to my class!
so nice of them seriously.





I'm extremely lazy today.
worse case ever!
i think it's all the standing around at work.
oh did i mention i LIKE, lost weight on the job. GOSH.
now sebas cant sound me fat! hahaa.
WHERE IS SEBAS AND JIEJIE LAHHHHHH!!!
they dissappeared AGAIN.
zinc bought my mac breakfast for me.
reena refilled water for me.
then minn and zinc got cocktails and HONEYmilktea for me.
like now, i wish someone would like carry me to the toilet, yes!





Fynn and Ivy NEVER COME SCHOOL.!!
but nvm, i got My Pet Monkey.
People, meet REENA.
she's my new entertainment.
shes like so weak, and still insist that she HAS MUSCLES.
menny! i found someone weaker then you.






looking at the group blog:
angel is freaking right.
why is she so wise, they say wise man are old.
SHES NOT OLD AT ALL CAN!
but she's so riiigghhhht.
EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON.
=]





let me summaries yesterday.
I NEVER EVER WANA STEP INTO BEDOK AGAIN.
IT'S LIKE SO FUCKING DESERTED AND OLD.!!






reina, made a really really
nice friendship band for me,
but too i cant keep it,
i had to eat it!













Because it's made up of...
SWEETS.!!


AMAZING AIN'T IT!





Save me,
please.


I Hope.
Ctrl-A works all the time.

They were really sweet,
my first day of work and
they came to fetch me after work,
although it was like 12+ that i ended work.

my parents came too,
i duno why.
it just felt weird.
why are they doing this only now.
i dun need them anymore.
i'm not the same me last time, as you have finally realised.


I'm sorry rong.

first promise i broke.
i feel like shit.
I hope that when i crossed the road later,
I get rammed down,
I don't wanna leave this fucking life no more.

No.
i guess we know in our hearts.
It's not the same.
you don't seem to realise.
i told you before, but i guess you forgot.
i don't explain.
will it all end in vail.?
if it's so, i rather not say the rest and be foolish.
because i would only be selfish holding back.

.

its the wrong in me.




Angel's words finally hit me down hard.
she didn't realised that i kept silent when she said that.
she's right.

in a way, i have joined the queue.
i'm a fucking loser.





MINN.
thank you babe.
for holding me and not letting go.
when i was all to hard to bare,
when everything gave way under the pressure.
MUACKS. love ya.
let it be our hushhush..




someone gave
me this and
a really really
sweet message..






It's MOTHER'S DAY!
heart to heart.
surprisingly i got up really early today,
considering that i usually wake at 3pm.
i woke up at 9am! man, i feel proud of myself.
went to the living room and saw my mum watching TV.
and i noticed something that i hadn't before. She looks older.
i realised that i hadn't really been exactly talking to her much.
so i sat down next to her and i din't mean to,
but according to her,
I was staring at her.


and there was one other thing that she told me;
"why didn't you tell me?"
"i know you don't like talking about your stuff,
but one person can't take it all alone."
i seems like a whole new thing when she said that,
i realised that i wasn't as invisible, as i wanted to be.
she told me she noticed.
the number of times she stood outside my door
because i shut and locked myself in.
she noticed the muffled cries over the blasting music.


She took me to the doctor,
and my head stopped hurting,
my cough and throat got much better after that.





Drawing
while
waiting..

just had this retardly
cute bear in my head.

AIN'T it cute?
















if you can read your smart.
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had a wonderful dream on sat,
sadly it didnt come again.
do dreams come true?
hurrhurr... *pokes*

RONG.
I shall promise not be emo.
*BEAMS*
will you really come and camp at RP?
HAHA.
tell me the exact date on when you will be back.!!

AND. what a dream you had,
cute lah. ME AND YOUR DARLING,ANGEL quarreling!!
impossible!! She and Me, we ARE A TEAM. =]
more like birdy and her, having cat fight everyday.
obviously, ANGEL wins duuuhhhh...


IT'S GONNA BE A REALLY LONG POST!
wahahahhaa...

BUT i'm such a good kid.
*BEAMS*

mama LOVES ME!
i dun care. she does.

i do not look like;
A BLOODY MONKEY!

1 prawn.

2 prawn.

3 prawn, 4.

thats just US.

GHOST
GHOST.

who make a better ghost?

GLOW.

and i look like some emo character!
gosh.

NOW. GUESS WHICH IS CHRIST WHICH IS LAREINA?
*shall give you a clue, look at the fingernails!!*

oh, alvin is so against lesbians and stuff.

makes me wana slap him only.
well, i shall make a mental note to blog about this some other time.
i'm just pure tired for now.

a disgusting, sorry state.
things have gotta change or i will
end up on a route that goes nowhere.


Rundown thoughts, ruins.
being alone is very dangerous indeed.

Doesn't matter whether it's the day or at night.
it's not the harm that others might bring,
its just YOURSELF. your inner demons.

one last time.
thats what i did.
i gave and caved.
























I realised if you tell the truth about how you’re feeling, it becomes funny.
i had people laughing when i say something serious.
either way if i say something serious or not they are all still laughing.
i dun't blame you guys, i laugh at myself all the time.

okay.enough.
as you all have made a point i'm a fucking a emo kid.
but fuck, i dont look like one.

this says it all...

Angels. Demons.Suicidal thoughts.

all i have to say;
your my past, lets just let it be that way.

decided and done.







FINALLY.

my dinner is here,
the usual....




ice-cream with brownie and hot fudge.
it totally made my day,
school suck.
but fynn is really entertaining totally making me feel better. haha.
talking to sebas for awhile also had me quite happy. =]]
that korkor was like having fun whacking my arm...


empty. worried.
facade. messages.
silence. inside.
voice. pushing.
they don't make any sense.
but to me it says it all.



FRIDAY.
omg. SAKAE SUSHI HAS IMPROVED.!
i still like ichiban better tho.
but i bet i ate the entire house of SASHIMI..
lovely awesome!
i ate till the whole restaurant went bankrupt.
yuan DRANK the whole restaurant bankrupt.
SO NO MATTER WHAT THEY STILL GO BANKRUPT.
SHE DRANK 7 BOWLS OF MISO SOUP.
i bet when we all are shitting it all out,
she's probably PEE-ING her way thru.!

stupid Gracia, she's super obsessed over bowel movements...
GREY-SHEAR™ [graa] ❤ ???????? ???????? says:
swim out
GREY-SHEAR™ [graa] ❤ ???????? ???????? says:
yaya
GREY-SHEAR™ [graa] ❤ ???????? ???????? says:
squids, fishes and octopus
GREY-SHEAR™ [graa] ❤ ???????? ???????? says:
u can form an aquarium in ur toiletbowl
LAWLS.!
>.<

Jess and gracia is still as HILARIOUS as ever.
no i'm not exaggerating here..
let me recall some things that they said.
it's seriously some funny business.
i was having difficulties breathing, i swear.

gracia was like totally picking on this poor waiter in the restaurant,
when i ask her why is she doing so...
she was like; "no lah,it's like his always standing around
near us, like he very FREE like that .!"
then i was like; "For Goodness Sake that's his station
of course his standing somewhere around here!!"
i couldn't believe that it didn't occur to her!

Jess and gracia ordered;
tempura mushroom...
and when there dish came it was like looking quite different from the first time we ordered it.
Jess was like; "GOSH. our mushrooms have WINKLES!"
jess's finger - pokes.pokes. the mushrooms.
reminds me of the wrinkled ducks!! zinc remember??
i was having my mouth full and i was totally choking when i heard what she said.
Gracia stabbed the mushrooms.
then she went; "omg, they didn't cook the mushrooms!"
giggles and stab.stab. the mushrooms again.
then i was like; "thats the total wrong dish dumbies. tell the guy."
and so the guy came and took the VERY MUCH POKED DISH AWAY.!
i wonder who he gave it too!!! hahahhaaaa.
it turned out to be a shitake grill.
explains the wrinkles!
haha.

ohoh...
JESS wanted to try the tempura quail eggs.
so when the waiter came she was like pointing to the words -tempura Quail eggs-;
"may i know what is this?"
[her meaning was to ask if its a side dish or it's something else bigger in proportion.]
the waiter was like; "those are niao dan."
and we all burst out laughing.!! not dumb what!
nian dan somemore.
after that. when it took super long to come.
Jess was like;"has the bird lay the eggs yet?"
gracia was like; "what other type of bird's eggs would you like to have?"
so obviously suan-ing the poor guy...

oh i had sooooo muuucccchh fun.


SATURDAY.
day out with mel, [pictures of you, pictures of me reminds us all of what we use to be....]
lunch.
then to arrow,
after that caregroup dinner,
Then to stay over at her house since she's all alone.
eeeeyyyuuuurrrr.

damn.
i'm missing you.


Today.
horrible horrible.
its worse then a nightmare.
because it is reality. rawr.

Seriously, omg.
it's like a damn horrible.
imagine sleeping until so shiok on the bus,
then when you wake up halfway
because ZINC MSGED YOU.
TADA.
i sight to behold.
not disgusting what...

A V neck button-up that is like bursting to the core.
worse still no wonder the guys beside me are WIDE AWAKE.
the girl was like sleeping on her hand that is holdng the pole.
oblivious to all the attention she's getting.
poor thing lah.

then i tot of zinc. wahahahahahaaa.
*inside joke.*

disgusting lor,
zinc please lah,
like i want to be your darling like that,
your msg in the morning is pukey.!

worse still i have no idea why that asshole was shouting at me in the morning.
i was like at the toilet he was like shouting at the other end of the house.
fuck.
RAWR.

lets hope my day gets better....
I WONDER WHERE IS SEBAS AND JIEJIE.
EYONS since i seen them.!!
msn suck to the core too.
someone slap RP.!!

birdy is FUCKING DISGUSTING TODAY.!! [as USUAL.]
and she found new renewed strength to fly now.
no longer hindered by the past, according to her it's "THAT BASTARD."

omg.omg.
when angel scared her...
the look on val's face just now was hilarious
WAHAHAHAHAHAAA.
leaving angel and me a HUGE stomach cramp.

its like her cheeks vibrated, she went white
then she took a tinny winny step backwards.
WAHAHAHAHAA....
she's gonna die. !!!!
i'm gonna start scaring her ALL THE TIME.

later~~


Rawr.

HAPPY BURTHDAY JESSICA.!!
HAPPY BURTHDAY CARSON.!!!!

it's so unfair,

not far what, my birthday.
=.=























IT'S JUST TODAY.
i want to slap myself
stabb my eyeball with a toothpick
hang myself on a tree upsidedown
and slowly slit my wrist and what so ever
maybe even stand in front of a truck and get run over.
ARGH.
nah. no kidding.! its just me and my destroyed mood right now.
so i'm fustrated and bitchy and what-so-ever.
java sucks. totally.
my codes are like mostly wrong,
my brain ain't working today..
im so fucking tired. why is there so many burthdays!


YESTERDAY: HAPPY BURTHDAY TO MICH!!!

ohoh.
had fun with fatfat, mama, reina, zinc and minn on sat.
met at zinc's hse andandand
totally! DUHHH....
with FATFAT AROUND what else!


we had;
kinder bueno.
chocolate pudding.
calbee.
calbee.
and more chips.
apple juice.
sprite.
7up.
and a hell lot more...
look at the mess!



lucky no bombay sapphire.










Zinc getting
bullied as ALWAYS.

and later in the night we had some;
"SERIOUS TALK".
okay correction, it's morning.





hushush.
i can't say more. hahaa.








FATFAT AS Chun li!!!!
[you know the one in streets fighter with two buns?]
just like orange it's owner sits WEIRDLY.


after that like we not fat enough,
went to get prata for breakfast, since its like 4+ am.
because of FATFAT: i got to know Bomb.
no bomb is no human, its a FOOD. a prata.

and so i headed home at 6+am.
knocked out for awhile..






Sadly, i had to turn down evee's offer to meet up and hang out.
But mich's Birthday party was a BLAST.
head home really late again.

so today. i woke up fucking tired.
obvious lack of sleep.

I realise ALL scorpios.
YES I'M GENERALISING, i mean AAAALLLLLLL.!
have a weird sense of affection.
look at SEBAS;
He calls me smelly,
and i call him stupid.
in which where we both aint THAT.
[now i call him dumb, and he complains i'm degrading him!]

haha. Butbutbut.. i bet he knows that i love him the best lah.
riggghhhttt sebas!!~
wahahahahah..


Meeting gracia, jessica, cynthia, celestine
and sy after school to celebrate
RABBIT's birthday!!!
Another burthday. RRRrrrr...
seems like there's a birthday every week from now on.

Christ is tired, very tired.
i need a breather.


A need to be alone...

Maybe, maybe not.



the only thing that still amuses me right now is the....
*blows...*

WAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAAAAA.

I'm Christ Jaden
also known as Tineey and Jaja.
11 November 1989
Mixed blood.


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