Monday, April 7, 2008
Sebas had a sad encounter today.
well, as usual the whole class was quiet because it's the first day.
he was trying to break the silence.
so he went; "hi, i'm sebas."
....................................................
then this bastard of a guy,
that looks like a indian version
of a william hung said;
" i didn't ask for you name."
WHAT A BASTARD.
how dare you say that to my nice nice korkor.!!!!!
i hope your balls rot, turn black [wait they are already black]
and drop off on their own.!I'm retarded today.i walked into the same class 3 times today.somemore it's like the class next door.NOT pai sei what...chey. it means to say.
ALOT.
Laughing it off.dammit.i dunno why it affected me,maybe i couldn't catch the joking tone.i shouldn't even be bothered.but it felt horrible,if my words can be compared to rubbish.what am i?
when i choose to run away,
somewhere far away.
till my fustrations come down to nil.
when nothing else matters anymore.
for tears to run down my face,
just to turn away because i don't want you to worry.
just all that.
because there is a need to be strong.
i lied and ran the whole night..
i finally took break.
fell asleep at 3.
today. i reach for tree branch and decided to get up.
i fear that it would break when i holded it.
but it didn't.
instead, it snapped off and stabbed me at my ribs.
it felt terrible. it hurt.
it hurt alot.
i need to distract myself .
and i did.
i did try.
i called your name...
but you couldn't hear.
leaving behind a beautiful chaos... 8:35 PM.
