Yesterday night,
was great, with chitchat and catch up.
Bombay sapphire, goes will enough with fruit juice.
the pizza was really cheesy.
thanks to KGT, who has flu and can't taste the saltiness.
just add and add only what.!
she has flu so she can't smell the alcohol or taste it also.
was thinking of drowning her, *GRINS*
then again... NOT.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIMON.
i ate till i can't breathe. haha.
as usual its a horrible having to eat on the same table..

then simon and kelvin just have to get into a fight again.
so as usual a had to stop them.
i should have punched simon first,
instead of pulling them both apart..

that so called dad of mine just walked out of the kitchen.
he didnt even FUCKING bother..

Am i suey or what, of all times,
i had to pull them apart
just as they both were about to swing at each other.
and simon fist hit me.. rawr.
it's not that bad tho.
the inner side of my cheek is bleeding.
i bet it will swell tomorrow.

then i was like shouting at them both to shut up
and i pushed simon against the wall and ask kelvin to get out.

then that bloody ass of a dad.
he was like screaming at me, when i went out of the kitchen.
he was like; "shout so loud for what!!"
and he say it's my fault and stuff that my brothers are fighting.
nagnagnag.

as usually he acts like he is both blind and deaf.
Cummon, even the dogs know.
somemore, like i very BIG in size like that.!
big enough to slam simon down isit.!
FUCK. i can only make them hear and look at me when i shout at them.

why bother explaining when you won't listen
walking away is much easier.
it's always my fault ain't it.
i won't wish for you to die.
i wish that i would tho,
because i'm sick all that.

i wish that one day, i finally explain myself.
and you hit me hard enough to kill me.
i would love that.

because i know.
I promised someone not to hate,
even though you almost killed me that time.


The GazettE - Burial Applicant .




Introducing;
Gazette - Reila.




White Turtle almost died.
okay, gheeting had a totally close shave of a near death incident.
looking at the pictures in her blog, it's totally horrific.

i shall treasure and not put off meeting up with the people that matters.
tonight i'm off to meet her and zinc, for a catch up and stuff.
next monday, would be with sammy and ivan.


UNDER STRICT SURVEILLANCE.
yesterday night was like a nightmare.
i was talking to "my dumby" on the phone,
and geez.
my mum had to make me hang up.
Okay, thats not really the point. REALLY.


so i was like "why do you want me to hang up?"
then she sat me down,
had "A TALK" with me.
a talk that last like till around 5am!


seems like my uncles and aunties said something about my behaviour outside..
according to my mum;

uncle jack said he saw me and another girl kissing at the busstop.
like when questioned when, she said last year.
when i asked, "which part of last year is last year",
mum stared at me.!
like WHAT!! =3=

according to some colleague of my dad;
he saw me making out at the back of the bus, like recently.
[which guy said that, like i meet you before.!
plus i have been super guai this year, zinc can vouch for me!]


auntie jesse whispered; " your secret is save with me."
and my mum overheard that during CNY.
[like what, WHAT SECRET.? ARGH.]

i'm only stating some, i proven my point.!
the stupid nonsense is enough to piss me off.
SERIOUSLY, fuck their god damn mouth.
if they have nothing better to do with their god damn lifes,
why not try the fastest way to die? slitting? swollow pills? try hanging!
i don't know whats their fucking problem to be creating stories up.
did i stepped on their fucking toes?
just because i talk to noone, doesnt mean im unfeeling in nature.
I'm quiet because i learned to be that way.





A NEED TO BE STRONG.
okay, my grandma's operation on the eye is a success.
she was brave, i wasn't.
she hugged me before she went in,
she told me not to worry, she still want to see me grow up.

i hope my grandpa would go for the operation.
it's unfair that ever since my uncle died,
he went under depression.
he isolates, i felt the raw pain in his eyes.
he fears death itself.



DOG. OPPS, DOGS.




my mum,
named him guai guai.
he actually responds to it.!
seriously if you call this dog any name
as long as your looking at it,
it will respond.!
gawwd. how dumb.
but his extremely adorable.

SPELL MALTESE. haha.











Look how
retarded they both are.!




















ROASTED




PIGLETS




FOR SALE.!



how cutely retarded they both are.!


MY NEW CLASS FOR THIS YEAR.

NO PRETTY BABES.

NO GOOD-LOOKING DUDES.

I DON'T WANT GO SCHOOL LE LAHHHHHHHHH!!!!


DOGS.
yeah. Not 1 but 2.
shall update with a picture next time.
Introducing the new dog into our family;
his name is........ boy.
why the stupid name?
>.< well, he only responds to that lah!

I got a dreaded feeling mama is NEVER coming near my house anymore.!!!
and zinc can never get enough courage to get her ass anywhere near my house.
thats not the point.
my parents just doesn't like people coming over too.

i swear i need to lay off breakdance for a while.
its sore, pain, OUCH.
bleh.

your in my head.
constantly.
why don't you see?

shall make it a point to go breaking with sammy and ivan soon...
hmm... next week? =]


MIND OVER MATTER.





it's sweaty business.
it's tiring but fun.
it's painfully bruiseful at times.
no. its not sex.


IT'S BETTER THEN SEX.!

"I HEARD A CRACK!"
well, thats what she said.
accordingly to kel -
i created a earthshaking sensation.
bleah whatever.
i cracked it back into place,
so its alright now.

Breakdancing and hiphop is easier without so much muscles and weight.
>.< size="1">i'll tell you guys if i'm still alive and kicking. *winks.*












































baby freeze and scorpion. down.
side freeze, chair and handstand to go.. ciao.

kiss my bruised legs.
goodnight people.
okay mel, i will study for BT.
relaxxxx...>.<


Joei's blog is great according to zinc.
haha.
and zinc said i should read and follow the first rule.
that. i can't do.

I'M SUCH A LOSER.


ILOSTMYPHONE.
yes, again.
i lost it..... by the beach, i think.

No, i'm not getting another one anytime soon.
contact me via my house number.


My days couldn't get any worse.
the constant quarrels at home,
i had enough.
i just had to run away for a while.








lets. let the pictures do the talking.
i didn't have the heart or mind to continue with the whole room.
maybe..
sometime soon....





some
of
the
memories
left.

A little bit more.

have a peep at
the other side of the wall.

and

im

finally

done.

I'm really sorry.
for yesterday for today.
(",)zнiчiŋg_ziNc(,") gosh. i'm scared. says: u lost ur hp??
christ jaden ouji מלאך feeling like a broken toy. says: yeap.
(",)zнiчiŋg_ziNc(,") gosh. i'm scared. says: >.< fast
christ jaden ouji מלאך feeling like a broken toy. says: spell suey
(",)zнiчiŋg_ziNc(,") gosh. i'm scared. says: sway
(",)zнiчiŋg_ziNc(,") gosh. i'm scared. says: where did you lost it?
(",)zнiчiŋg_ziNc(,") gosh. i'm scared. says: haha
christ jaden ouji מלאך feeling like a broken toy. says: duno
christ jaden ouji מלאך feeling like a broken toy. says: by the beach, i guess
(",)zнiчiŋg_ziNc(,") gosh. i'm scared. says: ph u went to the beach
(",)zнiчiŋg_ziNc(,") gosh. i'm scared. says: u sound sad
christ jaden ouji מלאך feeling like a broken toy. says: i do?
christ jaden ouji מלאך feeling like a broken toy. says: you cant actually hear my voice over msn what
(",)zнiчiŋg_ziNc(,") gosh. i'm scared. says: >.<
(",)zнiчiŋg_ziNc(,") gosh. i'm scared. says: u LOOK sad
(",)zнiчiŋg_ziNc(,") gosh. i'm scared. says: ur words
(",)zнiчiŋg_ziNc(,") gosh. i'm scared. says: haha
(",)zнiчiŋg_ziNc(,") gosh. i'm scared. says: wadever la u
christ jaden ouji מלאך feeling like a broken toy. says: you cant look at me
(",)zнiчiŋg_ziNc(,") gosh. i'm scared. says: ok~~
(",)zнiчiŋg_ziNc(,") gosh. i'm scared. says: fine
christ jaden ouji מלאך feeling like a broken toy. says: you really cant what your like not beside me or something
(",)zнiчiŋg_ziNc(,") gosh. i'm scared. says: i mean the way u.... chat
christ jaden ouji מלאך feeling like a broken toy. says: okay.
christ jaden ouji מלאך feeling like a broken toy. says: i didnt think you would realise
christ jaden ouji מלאך feeling like a broken toy. says: would it help if i put a. haha.?
(",)zнiчiŋg_ziNc(,") gosh. i'm scared. says: LOL

i'm being fucking bitchy, i deserve a bitch slap.
and zinc was really nice. why?
her reason; "because you sound sad."
i really hate when i vent my fustration on people.
i need to change that...

I'm falling down. down. down.
i need to get up, i'm losing it.
they say ignorance is bliss.
i tried to pretend. but now, i know.
ignorance and pretendance kills.

for now, im occupying myself.
to find time to read thru the bt book- the bt test is coming.
also learn new moves.
and hopefully need not rely.

No Wonder I Get Bored So Easily.. yawnsyawns.

Your love personality type is ENFP.
About 6% of the U.S. population possesses the combination of traits that make up this personality type.
As an ENFP, you probably find most traditions and rules to be a real bore.Others around you might even see you as a bit of a rebel. It appears that you enjoy standing apart from the crowd.
Moreover, because you have such a free spirited, friendly manner, there will usually be a crowd around you to stand apart from. Your special qualities can be very attractive.Among those traits is a high energy level that often keeps you on the move.

ENFPs like you are known for being real Renaissance types and having a diverse array of interests. Whether it's in work or play, your type is willing to take more risks than most. In relationships, you can be hard to pin down.
Life is a journey not a destination for you. You aren't the kind to falsely lead someone on. It seems you'd rather be evasive than lie to get out of a sticky situation. Because you crave excitement, chances are that you resist getting in to the kind of routine that often comes with commitment. This can sometimes pose a problem if you're paired with someone who needs a lot of structure in their relationship.
Given your test results, One of those four compatible types is an ISFJ.

0.0
.......
o.O
----
O.o
......
O.O! are you?..


BLONDE JOKES.!
under the request of zinc..


HAVE A GOOD LAUGH PEOPLE...

A blonde was walking her dogs when a man walking pass says;
"oh my, you have such beautiful dogs.. what are their names?"
The blonde replies; "Well, the taller one is Timex and the shorter one is Rolex."
The man responds; "That's interesting.. why did you name them such names?"
The blonde sighs and shakes her head;
"Everyone keeps asking me the same thing... duhh, what else can you name your watch dogs??"

HAHAHAAAAA.
A blonde went to buy a Pizza and after ordering,
the assistant asked her;"would you like your pizza cut into 6 or 12 pieces.?"
Her reply was; "6 please! i can never finish 12 pieces."

just as i thought they we getting smarter.
3 blondes are in an elevator when the elevator suddenely broke down.
They tried using their cell phones to get help, but there was no reception.
After a few hours of being stuck with no help in sight,
one blonde says to the others "I think the best way to call for help is by yelling together."
The others agree with the first, so they all inhale deeply
and begin to yell loudly
"Together, together, together."

MY PERSONAL FAVOURITE!
once there was 2 blondes that went on a road trip,
their final destination was disneyland.
then they came across a road sign;
its states; "DISNEYLAND left"
and they turned around and drove back home.

okay, enough about BLONDES.
HOW ABOUT PICK UP LINES?

melissa, felicia and i were discussing about
the different type of pickup lines that we had heard before.

Felicia was like, hear this;
guy; "hey felicia, i'm hurting all over."
felicia; "why is that so, you fell?"
guy; "yea, i did fell. i fell hard, for you."


My turn, it was so bloody cheesy;
some guy;"woah christ, hey do you have a fever?"
me; "hmmm.. like no.!"
some guy; "opps sorry, because you look really hot from over here."


melissa was busy convincing us that she had the worst experience ever.!
i didn't believe her.. till...
guy; "hey mel. i'm so overwhelmed by you."
melissa said; "why?"
guy; "because my love for you is like diarrhoea, i just can't hold it in."

GAWD. -SLAPS FOREHEAD-
that guy can totally kill himself.!
lucky, mel being mel, she just smiled and make chitchat.
chey.! I would totally roll eyeballs and walk away.

i shall get back to painting...


Someone taught me not to HATE anymore...
and i'm glad i changed.
can you?

ISSUES that are disturbing;
we are a long way from treating everyone as EQUALS.
i didn't think that was much a big deal till now,
its like as if the world is turning ugly inside-out.
first it's jokes- the laughing at,
then the discrimination- verbal abuse,
now what, violence-because of hate?

Then people get killed because of their race,
then Killed because of religion.
now what, sexuality.!


If you set aside, Differences in preferences or beliefs itself.
aren't all the same.? we are still humans.
we have i got the feeling we are all turning beastly.


Listen to ellen..



It's disturbing where that 15 year old kid, brian got the idea to murder larry,
just because larry asked him to be his valentine.
I wonder how it got implanted in his mind that it's okay for him
to murder larry because of sexuality itself.

Is it the minds of today's society,
that had shape that, into a mindset that it is a okay thing to do.?
A 15 year old KILLING another 15 year old.
larry was only 15 year old, he had a whole life ahead of him,
he had a long way to go. HE LOST IT ALL.
so did brian..
now not only theirs, many other lifes are ruined because of that.

the feeling of hate itself so strong, that one does not see that
as an entertainment or a joke to laugh at, like the past.
But now, to use violence-murder,
just because you couldn't tolerate it,
like it's the right thing to do.

Not only does this reflect on how today's society has became.
it's how we humans have become.. beastly?
i do not understand,
if your not gay, your not.
if you are gay, you are.
Why bother about the sexuality of the others, or even learn to hate them.?
hatred so strong that you have to get rid of the person.!
what have the people around brian have been teaching him.?

we all are born without any knowledge about this world..
why isit that now, even kids 15 year old kids can murder another.
had he learn only to hate and not to LOVE?

the people and things that implanted that idea into his head is more then just merely disgusting..

what was he thinking?
hate enough to kill?
expecting others will thank him for that?
because he got rid of something that is unacceptable to him?

This is disgusting and disturbing.
i might have a phobia for people sometime soon.

imagine this,
next time it would be a 10 year old kid,
taking a fork and stabbing another one of his/her classmate to death
just because they had a disagreement over using a fork or a spoon to eat.!

CHRIST'S NOTE TO PEOPLE OUT THERE:
spread the love people.
kill, hate itself, before it kills you. =]

OCCUPIED DAYS.
okay, im sorry for neglecting to blog.
i was pretty busy lazying around and getting stuff done. haha.
rong xiao jie no need to scream for me to update.!
i got guilty stricken for a minute. haha.


Monday.
Anyone that reads NEWSPAPER here?
well,recently...
know the incident about a guy who was going on 21.
he died just outside the salon?
he was feeling exhuasted
so he laid down on the stone table outside the salon
and just waited for his turn....
.........
He laid down;
He fell asleep,
and never woke up again.
.........
only seen him a couple of times since his my brother's friend,
but simon seems really sad.
i can't imagine if one of my close friends pass away.
NO THAT WILL NEVER HAPPEN. -prays to daddy up there.-

I told that to noone.
[SO NOW YOU GUYS KNOW.]
oh i did tell ash...
and she was like, "you better not let that happen to you, i'll kick your coffin when i see it."
haha. she's like so cute.
her feet will probably hurt from kicking a coffin.

well, and so my mum was incredibly worried and she started to tear.
i hate it when she cries. i can't take it when people cry.
and so i promised her i will stay home, and make sure i get enough rest.
i seems harsh that she fears death, i don't fear death.
i just don't like the things it takes away.
it's like a loss that you have get over,
a missing piece that can never be replaced.
it has no bloody right.


TUES.[a day without food wont hurt.]
because i need keep my promise to my mum, i stayed at home and rest.
i slept,
and slept
and slept.
ZZZzzzzZZzzz...
i even manage to convince my mum that sleep is more important then eating.! haha.
well, fully-recharged and since i just woke up.
Sc had great timing to call me up to meet her.
i met sc and zinc that night.
i was super hyper the whole time.
and strong was my sacarsim and teasing and stuff.
Sc was like,
"i don't want to meet you already la, i miss you call you out. you just poke fun at me."
AAwww.. me sadderest.
wahahahaa.
NOT!


WED.
sebas just had to totally screamed into the phone yesterday.
like it was like, around 4pm. gawdd.
"CHRIST, are you awake? wake up!"
i totally got a shock, i was busy painting designs onto my wall.
"NO NEED TO SHOUT, I'M AWAKE"
"your awake? u sure your awake?"
"im awake.."
"im awake!" CHEY!
he didnt even said like "hello christ, its sebas."
i so feel like whacking him...-takes pillow-
but then again it was my fault,
i haven comfirm with him the mahjong session. haha.
i totally forgotten about it..
then he goes; "you know, i miss you. jiejie misses you. how could you forget us.!"
me goes; "Like aren't we talking about mahjong here."

i cant remember who...!
"i can't decide whether your punk,emo or goth."
which idiot asked me that!..
*^#*!%@(
and i was stoning too much to answer her, i know its a HER.!
my answer;"how about neither, i don't really have a dress style dammit."
damn i cant remember who.

ohoh. ghee, was totally hilarious she said she caught my virus.
like she totally cant remember a huge portion of the day she had if she falls asleep.
and shes forgeting stuff very often.
man, not my fault! i didnt know my virus was infectious. ><

Today. [adding a touch of me.]
did backbreaking sketches and layouts and mixing of paints.
i decided to shift
my wardrobe, table, bed, guitar, keyboard, shelves...
and everything else in my room.
New layout.
new layout but i still love my darkdark room.!
i need space for two beanbags.! haha.
i need to draw the designs onto the walls.
and paint. and outline.
and carve on the wood.
buy; spray paint,
huge pieces of mahjong paper or cupboard,
new markers... [they ran out.]
and so many other things.

Im itching for BBALL.! [hinting. hinting.]
I wanna go tan.! [MELISSA WHERE ARE YOU STOP WORKING!]
my two brothers are complaining already.
simon says; "your so white, you can glow in your room." -sulks-
kelvin says; "you look like a drug addict." -throws knife-
AND I NEED SLEEP... my head hurts.

at 1pm.
mel; "christ, christ wake up and talk to me!"
me; "hi mel, ahh..my head hurts. where are you?"
mel; "having lunch.. what time did you sleep again?"
me; "i have no idea. around 5am but on-off msging still till 10am. "
mel; "you mad, how come you cant sleep like me?"
me; "your a pig lah.! you either didnt hear your phone,
or even if you picked up you can't remember anything.."

[for benefit of doubt.]
There was once i called melissa, because she asked for me to call her in the morning to wake her up and we head to the swimming complex and have breakfast together.
and so at 10am i reached tpy.
-calls mel- first call she didn't pick up.
-calls her hp- she still didnt pick up.
-calls her house-
denise picked up; "hey christ, melissa is still sleeping."
me; "pass her the phone."
melissa mummers; "hello?"
me screaming into phone; "gawwd. melissa WAKE UP.! we are suppose to go swimming!"
melissa blurry, "oh okay."
me; "where did you put your hp? you didnt put it slient mode right?"
melissa; "no, its beside me."
me; "well, you better get you and your ass off the bed.!
i meet you at your void at 11. considering its 10.30 now."
melissa; "oh okay."

THE POINT IS AFTER WAITING FOR ONE AND A HALF HOUR...
-calls melissa hp- nobody picks up.
-calls her house-
denise picks up; "hi christ, whats wrong?"
me; "is mel bathing?"
denise; "hmm.. wait i'll check. she's still sleeping. is she suppose to meet you? should i wake her up for you?"
me; "oh its alright i shall go up and wake her up myself."
-so up and i went to her room.-
-took a pillow and WHACK HER HARD.-

melissa stared at me in shock.!
melissa; "what, what did i do?"
me; "what time were you suppose to meet me?"
melissa; "we said 10am at the interchange yesterday right?"
me; " look its 12.30!"
-frowns-.
me; "wait a minute, i called you numerous times and you even told me you will be down at 11 just now."
melissa; -gaves a innocent face- "wait, i didnt even talk to you.!"
-i really felt like taking a pillow and whack her-
but it really seems that she didnt even know that she picked up the phone and talk to me.
her handphone wasnt on silent mode and she slept thru like, the 3 calls i made.
the house phone was like on the floor. obviously she fell right back to sleep and
even when the phone dropped she didnt hear.
WORST STILL, she has no memory of what happened. she felt like she just sleep and woke up and *WOLA!!* im there whacking her awake with a pillow..

-SLAPS FOREHEAD-
ME on the other hand is a super light sleeper.
*sulks*
How i wish i can be like her....
what a PIG.


NEW HAIRCUT.

my criteria:
i still want my long fringe.
i want the back shorter.
i want it black or blonde. i'm kinda sick of brown.



yup, and someone
suggested an emo haircut.





blah. i will think about it.


GOD BLESS THE BROKEN ROAD.

saturday:
went to meet melissa and joined the rest waiting for us inside "the rock"
melissa was first time late, and as for me first time early. ><
and so melissa said for me to wait for her outside the arcade
while she rushed down from the NUS open house.
man, lets see. i got tempted and went in and played the BBALL MACHINE.
wohoooo.. it was so fun i actually didnt realise melissa called like two times, ==
in the end i had to rush and meet her at the escalator instead.
the music was a blast.
the songs were blasting clubbing-loud,
have fun doing dance moves along with my clique.
fun catching up and stuff.

its weird how melissa is the only person in the world that can actually read my eyes.
the way she knows i do not take initiative in stuff.
MAN, what am i to do without her.. my-oh-so-dumb-but-i-still-love-her.

we all had fun catching up,
pei yi was super funny.
she had a -itotallywannatakeaknifeandstabyouintobitsandpieces- kinda look on the whole night, because of the stupid-ly retard jeremy harassment.

Oh and mel was totally my amusement the entire night.
she went to the NUS open house suppose to check out stuff.
she got everything, everything like the GOODY BAGS.
and totally had forgotten to go look at the booths on the courses.
still had the cheek to tell me that she felt like she missed something out.haha.

she sat on a lady's lap on the MRT while just reaching to get her paperbags,
in between her legs. i bet the women totally felt like anna in princess dairies in the beginning.
probably wondering if she's that invicible or just unnoticable as a human. mel's face was like TOMATO and she totally scrambled out of the mrt, mummering, "omg, embarassing, that was so embarassing!"

oh there are so many others, but i shall save her face.!

changing mentality was yesterday's topic, seems that god up there i like guilding me afterall.
and as usual mel got a shock and she was staring at me throughout the whole service.
i whispered;"quitstaringatme"
herwhisper; "ican'thelpit,itslikehe'stalkingtoyou"
i so totally wanna ran out of the auditorium. a hand held and i stayed put.
listened and keep really quiet.

Samantha was totally IRRITATING. i almost screamed at her again.
like either she's totally insensitive or she's borned without a ability to read emotions.
she dugged too deep, i said that i don't want to talk about it.
i even said THATIDON'TWANTTOSHARE. she still asked.
FUCK. then mel squeezed my hand.
she promised that i never have to meet sam again.
was that painful or what.
arghhh. screw you.
idon'tcareifyourjusttryingtogettoknowme.
drawyourfuckingline,onareaswhereyouJUSTHAVENONEEDTOKNOW.
it'smylife,thewayiam,thewayithink.
I TRUST WHO I WANT TO.



I Learned.
i managed better then i did the last.
i hold it in. i kept it within.

As the saying goes,
The happiest of people don't necessarily
have the best of everything;
they just make the most of everything
that comes along their way






wednesday.
since everyone was busy on thursday,
we decided to hold minn's burthday celebration on wed instead.
it was like totally as usual NOT PLANNED.
sueysuey. i had to rush about the place,
as usual my jeans are that "not for running about" kind.
I bet people can just see, boxers.boxers and more boxers.
well, me,samsam,barbra,zinc,mama,carson,kor,sc,a frog. made it.


oh its like a surprise party for minn, samsam almost spilled the beans.
but phew, since its my BLURBLUR laopor.
she didnt suspect a thing. =P
we had to "kidnap" her.
but then there was her parents that we have to bribe.
i had to have a "talk" with her dad. gawwdd.
Man, As it's me and my charms....
NEGOTIATION A SUCCESS.

Erase some awful memories of a bastard.
And all of us had a hell load of fun.
I bet mama has the most fun,
she went around hugging and kissing practically everyone!!
omg, carson is so nice!! because since most of us were quite drunk by the end.
He was so nice to go home and get his car to fetch us all home.


some pictures of minn's present.
was suppose to be presents but then again i don't have the rest of the pictures.
theres supposingly, a eeyyooorreee.
and pad-but not pad-infact-it's cottoncandy kinda thing. (it flew all the way back frm Taiwan)

Thursday:
by thurs, i was extremely exhuasted.!!
slept at 4 wake at 10am. THATS 6 HOURS!
like heeelllooo. i need 10hrs!
went to tpy with mum.
had to meet korkor in the afternoon along with wayne and the rest,
pei him go cut hair, BOTAK! (his going into NS the next day.)
man, i think CH is the only one who manages to look good botak.
shopped for a cap for him. in the end. he say no need.. =.=
rushed to meet zinc at amk..
she just wouldn't let me sleep on train. gawd..
head down to outram and cab-ed to maxwell,
meet sc, liwei, ben, crystal, bernice and the rest.[i forgot their names..]
then we went the arena for drinks and head down to PLAY!!
i would be going nowhere without cabs...they are the best inventions ever.
THAT was fun.
andandand..
- blank -
[zinc knows.AAAAHHHHHHHH!!!! ><]
and crashed home and slept at ard 4-5am.

Today has been lazydayathome,
while my mum force food upon me like im a pig that she's waiting to slaughter.
i woke up at 10+!!
when i walked pass the living room, my mum stared at me like i was an alien.
she was like, "the sun just rised from the west!".
gave her a -O.o face + atwistmouthtooneside- and went to the kitchen, to get milk.
and simon was there,
He actually challenged me to eat,
he has like;
11 sandwiches on his plate with like a bowl of soup and another bowl of oatmeal.
he challenged me to eat at least 5 sandwiches that he made..
so i stared at his plate..
..........
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.....
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LIKE NO WAY.!
looks disgusting lah.

i wanted to settled for soup,
and here is where my mum came along...
She drived me crazy!

she put in front of me;
one tuna cucumber sandwich,
a bowl of oatmeal,
a bowl of cereal with milk,
a bowl of clam chowder (thats all i want!!)
an apple.
then she said. "EAT IT ALL UP!"

=.='

==.=="

i was about to complain.
then she walked out of the kitchen...
*then i suddenely feel wide awake.*
i donated the cereal to simon.
forced kelvin to eat oatmeal.
put the apple back into the fridge.
and slowly munch on the sandwich and split soup with simon.
2hrs later.. my mum walked in.
and i was lying on the table, chewing the now-half sandwich.. ><
mum, "and you expect me to believe that you ate everything.."
"you can throw the sandwich away, and grab an apple and eat in front of me."
me: -grabs apple- storms towards my room.
[intending to open the window and throw it out..]
mum screams; " LIVING ROOM!"
dragged myself, throw myself onto the sofa.
decided to try one last time..
-gave puppy eyes- "can i at least share half with you?"
mum; sighs. -nods head-

YEAH!!!!!
puppy eyes does help. =]


Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?
Saying something and wishing you hadn't?,
or Saying nothing and wishing you had?

I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.
Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them.
If you do, they might break your heart. if you don't, you might break theirs.

Have u ever decided not to become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?

Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't. You can't tell your heart what to do.

It does it on its own. when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.

We tell lies when we are afraid...
[one truth]
you would be in my heart.
Would I be in yours?
If you still care for me as much as I care about you.





SHORTCOMINGS
the fake indifference.
the solemn silence.
the closing doors.


Along at the scav-ed blog site.
they were busy discussing...




























































I'm not against gay marriages.
it's just the thought of marriage itself that is scary.
imagine the effort taken to live in the same space, everyday.
just looking around at the unhappy marriages today,
it isn't that easy to achieve.

basically rotting and slacking off the holidays is really hard to get by.
the hanging out is fun.
but living everyday life with no aim no purpose and fulfillment
is not my kind of scene.
RAWR. i can't wait for school to start.


A Catch up with scave would be great... [I'm HINTING!!]
and im so looking forward to thursday night.








NIGHTMARES AND DREAMLANDS.

It's my dad's birthday today.
does it make a difference? no.
totally had a hard time eating together with him.

Gawd. i totally forgotten Min was out of singapore.
when i meet zinc for lunch yesterday and complained she didn't reply my msgs.
then zinc was like, SHES IN THAILAND LA!
-slaps forehead!-
according to zinc, min did tell me that she would be thailand.
but, all i remembered was pear vodka! ><

ohoh, the interview was bad, let's see i was okay with everything they require.
but when the guy say; "you need to cut your hair shorter, to be presentable."
i just stared at him... evee was shocked too.
need i say more about how the whole thing went after that.

Met darling sc, at Hgm coincidentially and I SUPER LOVE HER CAP CAN!
then zinc just have gotta spoil my mood by saying,
"but that's so girly, you gay."
-roll eyes balls-
she got to work today, so she couldn't join us yesterday night. awwww...
well, we would be meeting her this coming thurs, right zinc?
*winkswinks* here we go~
So let's let the video do the talking about yesterdaynight-todaymorning... caution; zinc is the only one thats slightly sober.



I'm forever mama's- cubby, sc's-bearbear, lala's-penguin and zinc's owner.
[which reminds me, i need to bring her to the vet soon. she's got doggy flu.]


When i finally caught up with sebas,
he was like; "i was busy, busy shopping for a car."
SEBAS GOT A MINI COOPER!
that's so unfair. You never wait for me!
i'm like waiting for my BT only can!
but since sebas said to bring me out to eat [he super love to stuff me up. =.=]
and fetch me to school, i shall forgive him... bleah.


Screaming it out loud.
composed.

the ensembled parts and pieces
we both knew, was faling apart.
as its getting cold inside.

i fake a smile so she wont see,
can't you see, what i see..
it tried to come back,
all my senses pushed.
it turned out the lights
ad i'm standing down once again,
hiding all my hope and dreams away.

it's time to make one last appeal.
for the life, i lived.
for i became what i cant be.
but, who knew.

sometimes t top to wonder, why we're here not there.
i gave my best toget what's there.
but in truth, that wasn't what we need.

for i wrong, i knew better now.
won't turn back, cause your world changed.
tragityshow..
time will tear us apart, it has a way of taking back.
but it wont break, anything we're.
we will say our last goodbye,
cause its better this way.
as all we are,
is everything that was.


tonight i drown. promised sc not to get out of the water.
she said she will help me swim.
but of now. wounded.
loserishly in pain.
lala just arived.

zinc and lala had a hell of a convo on the phone:
zinc - "hello, lala~~" [fucking high]
lala- "zinc, you guys want me to dapao supper?"
zinc- "sotong? okay arh."
zinc turns to, the me sprawned on the floor,
"christ, lala say she buying sotong!!"
me- "sotong~ I WANT~"
zinc- "christ say she want sotong!!" [screaming.]
lala- "gawwddd, what sotong? i said SUPPER"
"DAMMIT SUPPER"
zinc laughed her ass off and rolled on the floor.
i snatch phone from her.
me-"hey lala! sorry zinc is half drunk." [screamed into the phone]
lala-"SUPPER!! omg, is anyone sober! i said SUPPER!!"[SCREAMING!!]
me throws phone to mama.
me- "ME NEEDS TOILET. "
and guess what mama is fucking high.
haha, poor lala. but she arrived with alot of goodies.

argh. me miserable fool.
because you cant see......

I'm Christ Jaden
also known as Tineey and Jaja.
11 November 1989
Mixed blood.


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