Wednesday, February 6, 2008
i know i hadnt been blogging alot,
but life has been rather busy.
shall update about it when i have the mood too.
rightnow.
ineedmymask.
ihurther,unknowingly.
itwaspainful,butitoldherstraightthatihavetomoveon.
nottomeetupeveragain.
shedidntunderstand,
shesaidmovingonwouldbeleavingherbehind.
never thought things would end this way, the empty feeling once again.
its overwhelming.
its killing me.
she said the same thing as the rest did:"ur fucking pushing me away."
maybe i did. because i know. things never last.
because i know, she got into my heart.
im afraid.
very afraid.
so i pushed her out.
shes right. if we want to move on.
we shouldnt msg everday either.
do friends msg everyday.?
we were supposed to be friends.
"that night" was bad.
had me thinking too much about her.
Now, we are not even friends...
i will survive.
wont i?
i just hate myself. for i am a coward.
leaving behind a beautiful chaos... 3:36 PM.
