Thursday, February 21, 2008
It Just Seems That Way.BLESSINGS IN DISGUISES.walking along the streets.
i noticed details.
none that i notice before.
the way people smile, but their eyes are sad.
the way they laugh, a chuckle or just a smirk.
hands held but faces turned away.
without simple gestures, its just emptiness.
Is it just me or is it how the whole world has become.
when everyone just gets too hurt to trust anyone else,
when they are just too afraid to look again.
when they all had believed,
once.believing in the people that were just meant to passby
putting hope in the wrong people
then getting trashed and tattered torn
and at last decided not to look anymore.
trying to make the best of the shit of life they get.
Even the happiest person have a secret to hide.
I thought that at least,
"She" should be happy...
the way she encourages me to keep going everday,
when i just felt like giving all up.
she helped, ask me to settle down.
i held her in high esteem.
but looking at her, looking at everything.
looking at now.
its not that.
i noticed now, the way she never shares.
the pain she kept inside.
unspoken. uttered not even once.
it just hurts,
the way it is when i saw her recent post,
when she finally said something.
Last Words Of Wisdom;
underneath it all,
she given up before me.
She said; We shall both play...its not just a habit no more.
as i said:
LOVE IS JUST A GAME...
game where there can be as many players that you want.
Because afterall, its just a game..
i don't know anymore.
i can't make it this time.im know im not mending anymore,im sry, i lied. one last lie.dont even bother asking.I'm masked. this time im not taking it off again.They may seek to control their partner through emotional manipulation or seductiveness on one level, whereas displaying a marked dependency on them at another level. Individuals with this disorder often have impaired relationships with same-sex friends because of their sexually provocative behavior. They crave novelty, stimulation, and excitement and have a tendency to become bored with their usual routine. Although they often initiate a job or project with great enthusiasm, their interest may lag quickly. The actual risk of suicide is not known, but individuals with this disorder are at increased risk for suicidal gestures.hah. im that purely MASKED.
leaving behind a beautiful chaos... 4:07 PM.
