Revelate the unspoken.

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Disasterific

I'm still here.
yup, i'm still in singapore,
No, i do not regret not going back to my homeland one little bit.
=]

but i kinda miss;
the maribaya fountain tho.

I'M SICK OF IT ALL.
Omg, once and for all. PLEASE.
if your a guy and your thinking about convincing me to turn back straight.
i fuckin' hope you'll just shut up and walked back the way you came out from.
im not naming here. [don't make me.]
due to your self respect here, i hope you just look else where.
because i'm fucking not interested and i hope you can stop wasting your life waiting.

guy1. C*
seriously, your like a big brother nothing more.
i don't give a damn about how much your mum likes me.
If you are gonna continue ur fucking ridiculous behavior, endless rubbish.
i will make you feel like a rubbish.
and i don't need your promises. fuck.
i will never trust you again.

guy2. D**
please cut the crap out and lecturing me almost everytime we talk,
and please even if i turn straight i won't be yours.
i told you straight in your face, why won't you fucking listen.
have you got nuts in ur brain making all too clogged up to listen
or you just don't understand english, should i speak thai to you?
quit spreading rumours around you faggot.

guy3. J** ***
stop asking me about my relationships,it aint any of your business.
you disgust me, where is your pride?
i treat you badly for you to screw off, so quit sticking to me.
look for a whore when all you think about is sex.
your fucking emo, and i hope you freaking change.
i don't give a damn about how rich you are, you snotter.

guy4. N***
don't even think about it.
even if you wear a skirt, i wont go on a date with you. FUCK.
you digust me.

guy5. W** ****
i don't want to go on a ride on your bike!
your friend was kind enough to tell me, you fucking asshole.
screw you for thinking,
oh btw, thanks for telling your friend.
i'm glad i didnt punch you, because it will only dirty my hands.

ARGH.
because two of the bastards above,
i slammed the phone down and screamed -censored-.
my mum heard and i had a fall out with her,
she says shes gonna send me to a psychiatrist.
shes suspecting something happened before i had the mentality.
its kinda late that they only noticed now ain't it.
after many years of neglect.
don't try to make it up now.

Things that are done can never be undone.
[you get it, you get it. if you dont, well too bad]
my artwork is a mess.
i don't need a fucking eraser,
because you need to start from sketch again.
that is impossible, considering i have a brain.
i'm not a robot, where you can erase and install again.
i rather just improve and move on.

there's something wrong with me.
the songs says it all.

leaving behind a beautiful chaos... 8:55 PM.