Wednesday, February 20, 2008
The Awful Truth.
they say dogs heal by licking their wounds..
what do humans do?
It happened again,it didnt for a really long time.
I thought nobody could do that to me again,i was wrong.putting the blame on me.things i didnt do but was thought to have done.i had enough; at home, in primary school, when i pitied them.in secondary. when i was problemathic.and they fucking dont believe i would change.And i fucking threw the table at them.things i have learned?i dont need to prove to anyone,its a fucking mentality.I dont explain for my actions,they alrdy have it stuck in their god damn thick skull head, that im always the one at fault.the feeling like i have in the past.i didnt like that feeling,so i took a swim.I was swimming, it felt good,had one more and i drowned.i blurted everything out.nobody knows everything about me.but i guess someone does right now.i made her cry, i dunt want to see anyone cry for me again, its gonna be the last, i thought 2 years ago was last.fuck that.she told me, when we drown.then the lock to our heart gets spoiled.everything comes out after.she and me. are alike.but how come it still felt like,Stuff inside me.
Are just meant to be kept within.its just the feeling of reliance that i hate,i have been independent and i dont rely.im sorry.
its just been too long left alone.i miss pebbles.i miss the me and her on the first day, i really do..they say; " people change, everything does."my point back to them...how do you know you have change,
if you dont even know who you are
before all this shit you have been through.
what makes you think you know me,When i don't even know myself in the first place.
Fuck off.
i am the way i am.
dont question me.
leaving behind a beautiful chaos... 3:43 PM.
