Wednesday, January 30, 2008
This is the first entry of this whole new blog and whole new objective!because...I hereby swear to live my life afresh.Da ge (Angel) was right. why live life in hatred.
put aside all the differences and rather not see the person even though they are there.
i decided to leave things to be. maybe really let it all go.
whether i like it or not.
i have to force myself.
and im not alone this time! =]
lucky scaved have been around me to comfort for advise and a shoulder to unload some burdens and fustrations on.
Love proclaims; <3Sebas says he will be my punching bag and since our houses are like freaking near i can call him up, jus to punch and cry on his shoulder. he could be my tempo boy or girlfriend dpending on which i feel like having. (he's the sweetest thing!)
Birdy(evee) loves me like mad. she proclaim it out loud. (scared that nobody will know or smthing. geezz.)
i will never forget how freaking concern zinc was over me "that day" well.
i decided not to do that ever again. talking doesnt help but hurting aint helping either.
Because i realised that when i hurt myself.im not the only one getting the pain.people around me seem to feel the pain much more then that of which i inflicted upon myself.the tears in my mum's eyes. the dissapointment.
the look in my dad's eyes. the despise in the air.
[ stopped trying to figure out why he hates me so much. as of NOW.]Hmmm.. theres no freaking answer to the question its just THERE.The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past;
you can't go forward in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.
->this shall be my new year's resolution.!! =]
WellWell...Its only the last 4th day in class and they already started saying such emotional stuff:
JieJie said, that i must never ever forget her bec if i do she will cry!
[spoilt brat lah, always say i more spoilt then her!]Nick said, he loves disturbing me so much that he will be so bored without me next year, different diploma=different schools and all.
[geez guys and their egos, cant they say they will miss you.?]Sebas said, to ask him out anytime plus he asked me to work at adidas along side with him so that he wont miss me... [here's one guy that says i will miss you and he can sa jiao!~ ]Dada said, you can come my house anytime!
[haha. not for sex DUH... to play~ he's such a cutey pie his facial expressions are funny.]andanddd....due to my stupid STM. i forgot the rest... >.<
omg.. and val(valerie) aint coming to school anymore bec she can afford to skip the rest of the days away...IM SO SAD. THERE GOES MY COMPANION TO PEI ME GO BUY MILKTEA... haha.and val can so seriously read what im thinking ( as in my head, on my face).... gawwdddd. All the love in the world + a whole new life as of now...
i shall make my way to the piano now... =]
christ jaden
leaving behind a beautiful chaos... 9:10 AM.
